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Always have high self-esteem and confidence; to achieve what you wished for.
Sunday, November 15, 2009



Hey peeps! I've finally moved.

Reasons: Oh, freaking lazy to blog more.
But this blog will stay put as long as I'm here. Too many sweet yet sour memories to be kept as my childhood days :D


Love, Fee :D

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last and last
Thursday, July 16, 2009



This will be my last post till end of O levels. When you think it’s long, it’s really not. I left with 3months, maybe less, to buck up on every subject.

I’ve not been spending time at home with family or with Mr Turtle. I’m sorry. Been going thru and fro for night study, thanks to Mr Turtle who have been sending and picking me up from school late at night. I want to achieve whatever I’ve been wishing/wanting for all this while. I don’t want to regret after studying for 4years. I should keep this post short and sweet.

Hope family, friends and Mr Turtle can give me all the support i need.

I’ll be back on 12/13th November 2009 (probably after my last paper).
MISS ME PEOPLE! BYE!

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pppeeeennnnnaaatttt taw!
Monday, July 13, 2009



I’m sleepy. I’ll update tomorrow if I have time. Good Night.

Mr Turtle, my owns.
“ Da ader jantan pun nak tengok jantan orang?!”
Bodoh peh BITCH in MRT.

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totally fun out
Friday, July 10, 2009


Reached home at 1030pm. I’m tired of walking long distance. Tomorrow's plan is just jogging anf studying. Will be meeting Ma with Turtle (*Piggy’s new name is now turtle. I’m the pig -.-“). Ma asked Turtle how am I doing in my studies, he lied just to make her satisfied because I'll get scolding from Ma if my studies dropped. What I told him was that I’m going to make ma proud instead of his son making her proud. Haha.

So, okay. Today was the best, fun, and sweet, whatever. Went to meet Turtle at Admiralty. Waited for him to make up while I search for some polytechnics courses. Trying to apply for DPA. Looking at my results, I don’t think I’ll get through. Let's just try luck. Went out at 5pm from his crib. Sit around under his void deck then took train to Clarke Quay. Sit, have a talk and a lil bit of camwhore; too bad most of the pictures are not nice. I know I’m choosy, so what? Now, I’ve told him everything! Yes! No more secrets. Heee :)

One ______ poem he created. I laugh non-stop. He's trying to be Danni Al-Azri, but failed -.-"

You're like the water in the sea,
the turtle is looking at you and me!
That's where he got his turtle name from. Haha! Stupid, I know but idc. Waited for ibu to come back home from sister’s place, she showed me this Puppet video. Copyrighted by my pretty ass sis. Enjoy! (This is a stupid video!)

Enjoyed? Haha. Like I've said, this video is stupid for a 26yearold married woman to make this kind of puppet show. Duh!
I'm sleepy and tired. Turning in now, good night!

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back to square one
Thursday, July 9, 2009



I’m falling continuously. That’s when shit happens. Why am I falling in love again? I’m not supposed to. She knows. I’m sorry. Needing the light to push me forward. I’m living in darkness of people happiness. Why? Grrr. What’s wrong with me?

It’s less than 3 months till O’s and I’m not improving. I’m just declining each and every single day, even till my prelims. My results are all gone from bad to worse. I’m sick of being the worse in the group. I felt like crying seeing others achieving what they always wanted and me? Just insulting myself again and again.

Let’s just say I’M LOOSING HOPE.

All I have in my brain now are questions but no answer to it. Who does? Myself, I know. WAKE UP FEE! LACKING OF TIME, WHY DO YOU STILL WANT TO WASTE YOUR TIME ON STUPID THINGS WHEN YOU COULD STUDY HARD NOW AND ACHIEVE WHAT YOU WANT LATER? WAKE UP! I’ve woke up from my dream since the last paper was out. Seriously. All I did was sit there, and be quiet. Not talking to anyone. I’m ready to accept reality and be in ITE instead of my dream school.

Hurt Angry Sad Insulting Disappointment

To someone,

Here’s a reply. Yes, you’re true that friends come and go. So do I. After what you’ve told me to, I’ve decided to leave but I kept thinking about the promise we made. Will it still be true or just let us just say the end? I’m confused by all the things going on around me. I know, so do you. You take care of yourself and be a good boyfriend to her. I quit loving people. It makes no sense at time when it’s all because of studies, but it does to me. Friend, don’t quit because quitters never win, winners never quit. You still have time. I’m just advising you and hoping you could be a successor in life. Remember, you're the one who give me hope, asked me to move on when we started knowing each other and now, you want to give up. I'm begging you DON'T DO IT. All the best.

I love you, friend.

"If you are going to gain anything in life, gain a friend, they will always be there, and that makes all the difference in the world."

From a friend.

What past is history, what’s waiting ahead is future. I’ll strive for the best. I’m done here. I’m going. BYE!


Here's a reply to tagboard:

Epi: Hey, so you're Az's friend. Oh ok. Anyway, nothing happen. We're fine. Thanks for asking :)

Adlyboy: We'll meet up soon. Don't worry. We have something to talk about anyway.

Sirin: Girl, O's still haven't end and that's mean my papers haven't state to the end. I miss you. All the best for the left papers sweet :)

Azri: I know. Sometimes I do wonder what so nice about the music that I listen to that attracted you so much. Maybe it's the reason of us for not separating and leaving each other right? Not all we want will come true in life. It will either takes time to happen or it will just not happen to us. Let's just hope for the best ok. Remember, don't give up hope yet. Stay strong. Promise me that and I will do it too. If you could endure a life with me, why not your life yourself? I will aim for Poly, you don't worry ok. If I can make it, you can make it. Update me with the dates of you migrating ok. Tkcr friend :)

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I miss you!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009


Hey! Fee’s back blogging. Prelim 1 finally over. Fweeuuh! I flung my prelims to the extreme. Just feel like whacking whatever thing that is in front of me. Tears will starts to flow down when H will start calling up people to his office. We’ll see. Next is to buck up and brush up everything from the start (must). Haha. Prelim 2 is waiting.

Well, many things happen this few days during prelims. Wait, wait.

Must we lie in loving someone? Ha! Come on lah, if you’re not willing to wait then I’m fine with it. There’s millions out there anyway. I’m so over you right now, don’t you worry okay. I’ll be gone from your life as soon as I can. Last long with your beloved BABY cause I don’t think I care much now. I still have others who care and love me. So yeah, your loss is not so bad after all. Oh ya, anyway, thanks for everything though you did nothing much, just that your LIES JER YANG MELEBIH! Rofl. Not to be rude, just to state the facts here. Apology if it hurts you in a way or another.

Done with one, another one comes.
5am, my phone rang. It was someone who used to fuck me upside down when I was with him/her. Came back to apologise for his past deeds. How? Why the past does came back after a long time of not being together? It’s been continuing after one’s left. Let’s just go through it.

Piggy is pestering me to talk about him in my blog. Well, jealousy acts when I talk about other guys on my blog. WTH lah you?! Seriously I have no idea what to talk about. I’ll do a composition about you then I’ll post on my blog ok? (if that happens, great!) Hahaha.

He wanted this photo to be put up so much -.-"

Applying for DPA starts today. I wonder if I could make it if I were to apply for it. ANDand night study starts next week from Monday to Thursday, 6pm-9pm. I’m applying for it. I really need to buck up. TO MY DEAREST PIGGY, WILL ONLY BE MEETING YOU ON WEEKENDS OKAY!
I’m tired. I need a rest. BYE!

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away
Tuesday, June 30, 2009


Fee will be on HIATUS till prelims are over.
tkcr.

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soccer match
Saturday, June 27, 2009



Went to meet Sirin and Lulu at library in the morning. Once again, study for a minutes and the rest are rubbish. As per normal lah when girls meet, they went all crazy. Wouldn’t want to elaborate more, I’m just lazy.



At 3.30pm took bus to Juying. The boys having soccer match at my school’s field. It finished at 6pm. Saw Radin. It’s been a long time since I met her, since the last netball training. Oh my! I miss netball already. LOL. I’ve always been a toy there when Rahul’s three brothers are there. Grrr. Anyway, they lost! :P
Hein: Iqah balik lah!

Abg Adib: Kau tunggu Rahul ehk? Nak naik motor?
*calling his mom*
Abg Adib: Mak, iqah ader kat sini. Call maklong Minah. Cakap anak dier ader dekat sini, tunggu Rahul antar balik.

Mak Oteh: Dier nak balik sini tak?

I headed home with Hapheez, Amin, Radin and Kim. Was soo frustrated! Next was Hapheez turn -.-“ IN THE BUS!

Hapheez: Fee! Da besar kau nak kawin dengan Khadri ehk? Kan that time dier cakap dengan mak kau dekat bus stop. Ha! You cannot hide anymore :P

WTF?! Making funny jokes is his thang. Can’t be blame. Damn this idiotic ass. I’m tired and my mouth is freaking pain. Bodoh -.-" Bye!

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the truth


I love them both, but can't have them both.
It's tearing me apart!
My former joy and present boy:
Both have got my heart.
I have to choose, so I must lose
someone I really love.
It feels like dirt
that I must hurt a guy that I dream of.
Why this must be I cannot see;
I only know I must.
Each might endure, for I am sure
that this is ,love not lust.
I weep and wail to no avail;
I can't say no to either.
But if I can't tell what I want,
Could that mean I want neither?


Maybe this speaks the truth, like once I've said. If i have to choose one and another gets hurt. I'd rather leave both than choose anyone. I don't want to see anyone's heart is broken by me. Let me suffer inner and while I can hold on, I'll hold. Don't worry.

I'll mend every piece of that broken pieces of my heart all by myself without you as you know, you'll always judge me the things you'll never know.

I HATE YOU!
My temper has gone to the max and I can't stand they way my life being patient with you.

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Sirin's crib was fun.
Friday, June 26, 2009


Hi Readers!

Someone has been pestering me to update about the Sentosa outing, here goes. Point form will be better rather than typing out the whole story, you’ll sleep.

· Meet up with the girls at Boon Lay MRT station around 3+pm.
· Took the train to Habourfront, Vivo, Sentosa.
· Reached Sentosa around 4pm.
· Get changed and bought a ball which cost us $6.
· Bored enough? Played volleyball, captain’s ball and hide the ball in the sand?!
· Too boring! Played water polo. Marzie who doesn’t want to get in the water, went in the water first. LOL. Shiykin didn’t want to get wet since she doesn’t bring extra undergarments -.-“
· She did get wet at last. Haha.
· Ball drift away from Marzie, who didn’t want to get it ‘cause it was too far. I had to swim to get the ball -________- “YAY! FEE! Go fee go!” Guess what? Shiykin was cheering.
· Played with sand, making alphabets and camwhore. Well, it’s the best part of all. Everyone was covered in sand.
· Was nearly 7, went to took a bath.
· Had dinner at Habourfront. The chicken rice sucks big time, no taste -.-“
· Home sweet home. Slept at 3.

That’s the end of the story of The Girls Outing. Haha. Boring I know. So? Success anyway. Here's are the combination of the pictures taken at Sentosa.


25th June 2009
Slept sister house since no one accompany her. I felt totally different there. Seriously different. The second I stepped in, my hand was heavy. Lenguh giler! I can’t get a nice sleep that night since I can’t make this the pain stop. The more I make it rest, the more pain I felt. I don’t know what’s wrong but it’s freaking weird. Went I was out from sister’s house, the pain wasn’t there anymore. WTF?!

26th June 2009 /today
Went to Sirin’s crib at 3.30pm. I was late. Sorry. We’re supposed to study but instead we updated each other with stories and I had my late lunch with her. At 4.30pm, we went down to play badminton. Well, unfortunately saw Abang Budi and his friend. He joined us. 6pm we went home. Having he to join us was real fun :) Rahul wanted to drop by, but he only did at night when I was leaving. Pathetic ass.

"Eye contact!"

"Communication!"

"You sucks!"



Here are some pictures taken at her crib.


This week is kind of boring since the outing doesn’t really go out the way I wanted too. Anw, I’m going to meet Sirin and Lulu tomorrow morning to mug, mug and mug like freak. Next will be meeting whoever you are ok. Bye!

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009


Just came back from outing to Sentosa.

It's was fun but kind of boring though, thanks to those who PAITAO -.-"



Will update tomorrow, . I need the pictures ShaSha :D

outs - Sentosa


Just came back from outing to Sentosa.
It's was fun but kind of boring though, thanks to those who PAITAO -.-"

Will update tomorrow, super tired. I need the pictures ShaSha :D
Good nigth peeps!


I miss you.

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HBN!
Sunday, June 21, 2009


Happy 16th Birthday Nadyra!
May all your wish come true babe! Take Care and all the best :D

Nothing much happen today. Went out to meet Marzie at Pioneer Mall at 5pm. Finished up Physics (most lah). Share stories, bought fries and double chocolate. Thanks Marzie for the listener ear :) Walk to Xingnan busstop and went home. Brother’s home! No prezzie -.-“

So yeah, that’s it for today. I know, boring. That’s life!

Anyway, Happy Fathers' Day!
Dad, thank you for everything. Although I do hate you at time because you simple made my life miserable, you’re still my one and only dad. No one else could replace you. Thanks for taking care of me for the past 16 years. I love you!

[edited]
Well, catch up with dearest Khadri just now. Maybe will be going for an outing, I really miss him! Had some webcam session with him. Snap some photo’s which he doesn’t even realise. Here’s it. (Ignore the stupid conversation)



Idiot basterd. Haha. Bye.

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apology.


I’m seriously getting fatter. Eat, sleep, eat, sleep. WTF?! Just came back from Changi with parents, lepak there. Quite a lot of people fishing but no fish -.-“ The water is shallow, duh! I don’t know why I’m freaking tired. Should get some rest. Anw, thanks mom and dad. You make me laugh after the rain of tears poured down at home. Waking up tomorrow morning to have a jog alone den meeting dearest Marzie to catch up with her. I miss her.

I get a MMS from Piggy while otw to Changi. Here it is:

I never regret having to take your number from ahkym. Never regret shedding those tears. Never regret the fun we had. Lastly never regret falling in love with u. U make me believe in love after being hurt by Dee. Make me believe that I could have a special someone in my heart. However hurt I am. My love for u is still there. Never have I love someone like u. U are the one light that guides me thru the dark times I'm having now. The one who makes me still believe in life no matter what comes to me. Nothing could take the light away not even the prettiest of all girls or the most well mannered one. I need u. Without u I’m just a guy unhappy with life. U made me look forward to life. I can’t believe I’m crying right now. I may look tough outside but inside I need love n care like other people. I’m never going to leave u. My hearts broken so be it. Time n u could heal it. I’m not perfect. I know that I’m unlucky in love but u is the 1 who made me think that love is not bout luck but fate. I don’t what to say b. Even without the willingness to live I know that I still love u. U may lie& cheat to me but I’ll still be here yearning for your love. I’m sorry I ruin your friendship but he’s trying to ruin our love. What else can I do? I can’t think b. U saw how happy I am just now. Who else can make me feel that way? Just now I released all my doubts, questions, pain to u. U saw rite. I’ve done bad things in my life n maybe this is god's punishment for me. Don’t worry I won’t give up. As long as you're here by my side. I don’t care about my broken dreams right now. I just want to make sure the girl of my life doesn’t leave me. Adly love fee. Even a gun to my head won’t make me change that sentence.

This words and phrases never let my tears down for the very first time. I’m sorry. I’m too mad at myself. Guess I can’t blame you for what happen. It’s me. I shouldn’t have gone in his life before this. I didn’t know this would happen. People advice me that let us be TRUE AND BE HURT rather than LIE AND BE HAPPY. I insisted. I continued lying and hurt both feelings. This just feel suck! I can’t think, can’t smile like I always do till everything is settled. This argument has been going on for days and it’s still not settled yet.

You may think these are all sweet words, all I can say it’s all up to you to believe and since you should know what is right is what is wrong. I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feeling and all I have to do is lie. Id didn’t know it was the wrong thing to do till the day everything happened. I was damn afraid to lose either of you. I’m sorry. Lying makes me have both of you but in the end I lost one.

DANNI AL-AZRI,
I just wished you could forgive me. You’re the one who asked me to move on life while I’m far back thinking about the past. You also lied to me remember when you said you’re single but the truth is that you’re attached with Farah? You lied because you wanted to get closer and to know me more since you know that if you were to say that you’re attached, I will ignore you. This goes same to me. I know it hurts a lot, I’ve felt it before, but I have to. I have my own reason for lying. True enough? Promise me just one thing, just ONE. Don’t ever hurt yourself again. I still keep my words. Remember them? I’ll never break my promise to you only until you have found someone that could replace the position of mine. Once again, please forgive for my wrong doings. If I could forgive you, why can’t you?


ADLY HAZIQ,
You suffer too much didn’t you? You could just leave if you want to because all the fault is not yours. Blame it to me because I’m in the wrong. I don’t know what else to say. Same goes to you. I’m worried for you either. For your safety after you told me what happen the past two days when you were with Arepp. That really rooted me to the ground. I assured you once, after that, it’s gone. I’m fucking sorry. I don’t mean to hurt you like I’ve said, but ... I’ll meet you one day to explain everything, if I can. All the best for your sentence on Monday sweets. I’m sorry I can be with you, let ma be. I have to go for more important things. Wish you best of luck.

Azri messaged me just now, telling me what happen to him. I’m sorry. Rest well and I hope you recover soon Az. Tc! Guess that’s all I could typed for now. I can’t think much more. Blank. Tomorrow’s brother and family’s coming back from Hong Kong Disneyland. Freak, they should have a gift for me :P

Till here.
Good night readers.

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oh GOD, help me.
Friday, June 19, 2009



Had Biology lesson just now. We did Skill 3 on planning an experiment. It wasn’t so bad since this was the second time. I got full marks for Skill 2 :D Hurray! LOL -.-“

Mum’s out. Dad’s working. Brother and family flew off at 7 in the morning just now. I kind of miss the two kids at home, will be babysitting them today if they weren’t out. Holidays will be over soon and Prelims are just starting. I’m totally not ready for it. Catch up with cousin’s yesterday. Hopes she’s doing just fine in JJC. Shall meet up with her soon, totally miss her.

Piggy is still sleeping like a pig in his muddy bed. Shall wake him up later. Well, today’s plan:

· Meet piggy
· Watch movie, Ghost of Girlfriends
· Visit cousin and meet the new born baby

I really don’t know if today’s plan will work out because mum will always ruin it with her own plan. -.-“ Will see.

Currently chatting with Az. Thanks for everything dude! The pictures and all, it was awesome to get all the edited pictures. Haha. Crazy boy. Oh ya! Anyway, I’m going to beat you in the game, so no worry :P

Geez, I have to apologise about yesterday's night Az. I seriously ran out of thoughts when you asked me that question. I can't help it but every answer was/wasn't the truth. figure it out. I'm totally in a mess of life. I don't know what to do. I guess I'll leave both of you to peace, that will only be the grestest of all things I could do rather than huting anyone of you. I'm sorry. Will be gone soon. Bye.

Boredom strikes now.

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take a break
Thursday, June 18, 2009


Well, I seriously don’t get enough sleep. Eye-bags are getting worse. Now, vomiting out whatever that goes in. Not stomach flu please! This suck, totally. It has been days since I last slept early; I’ve been sleeping after 5 this 2 days. Grrr. I want to rest; let me try to get some fucking good sleep can?

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Arghhh!! I just woke up from my nap. People just can’t see me taking some rest. Call, call call. Just eat durian and drank up my left over soya bean. Still, this just don’t seems right for my stomach. Can I just don’t eat since nothing is right for it? Or may be I think I just make an appointment at polyclinic if it’s going to get worse.

Additional Math was just as horrible as the other three Sciences for me. take a look at the O level last year paper, fuuhhh! “You have to at least know how to do 80% of the questions. Prelim is coming, remember!” Let me guess, I can even get the second question right and asked me to proceed on? Forget it man. Ha. I just feel like giving up but I don’t want to, yes very complicated life! I was almost half dead when Mr Koh extend the lesson HALF AND HOUR more. Haha :D
Just wish that he could release us faster.
Full of numbers and fomulas. Grrr
When I get bored, I draw :)

Ohya! Anyway, I met Firdaus, Mr Hottie ;), outside school while otw to bus stop with ShaSha :D Super happy. I just can’t get over him even though it’s after a year we’ve not been together. How tell me?! she just love him like her own daughter, damn her. Haish! Don’t fly over can? Because I’m going to miss you so much. Boo hoo!

Guess that’s all. Mum’s out. I’m babysitting this 2 naughty fellow at home while brother’s sleeping. Mum just ruin my plan, I can’t meet Piggy today. Brother’s and family flying over to Hong Kong Disneyland despite the H1N1 virus. Pray hard will do great. Have fun peeps. Bring home some things for me :D

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Danni Al-Azri
Tuesday, June 16, 2009



Love, love is not something to be played around to fool people around.

I seriously quit falling in love. I had enough of every guy words. Sweet talk doesn’t work on me anymore. Now I realise, I’m too soft hearted to believe everything people said. I’m wrong in this. I know. You know my weakness and if you really love me, you wouldn’t want to take my weakness to build your happiness. You once gave me hope, now you ruin it yourself.

I’m not posting much, this is between me and him. Guess, it might be the end of us. I’m sorry if this words are too harsh for you to take in. It’s for us. A good one.
I’d rather be dead than to have fallen in love again.

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wish and hope


>.<"

Pissed! Biology class was cancelled last minute. It's a sigh that I had not stepped out my house yet. Just finished with house chores; thons of clothes have to be fold. Might be going out later in the afternoon to hospital. Cousin gave birth yesterday at 9pm.

Kak Irah, congratulations on your second child.
Will meet up soon to meet the new born baby :) Wondering how handsome it will be; if only he would he like your first son, which I had forgotten the name. Ha! Take good care of yourself then!

Sis would be going to Indonesia this evening. Mom, I want to follow! Damn, stupid school and lessons! Missing people in kampong too much already. Hopefully mom and dad would make up their mind and proceed on with the plan. With that I guess I'll be leaving Sg from Friday to Sunday - that's only an IF!

Guess I won't be meeting Piggy today due to something on; both of us. Have to wake him up soon, he has a date with 'Eileen' to find job! Ha. Paitao lagi -.-" Currently chatting with Azri (a new friend, wonderful mate) - thanks for the songs dude! :)

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game-ing
Sunday, June 14, 2009


Addicted to ACROWARS!
All thanks to Hapheez and Hakim. Love you guys. Ohya, thanks for cheering me up. Stupid iron, ruin my favourite dress. Damn it.

Okay, Fee stop and sleep. It's 5.20 in the morning. I'm turning in. BYE!

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get on diet.


Just came back from Bukit Panjang with daddy. I’m tired and restless.

I woke up extremely late today. Breatheless while watching television. Piggy and Sirin called up. I sound terrible. Seriously, dead horrible. Haha. I’m fine now, thanks for the concern guys. Took my bath and make up for the wedding. Mom was there, cooking. Meet my dearest boy, Rahul! I miss him tuckloads. He ain’t coming tomorrow due to his soccer. Shit ass! RAHUL BOGEY! Haha. Miss one tooth there. Lol. Hopefully Sirin would be able to attend the wedding tomorrow, I kind off miss her and Lulu too :D

People kept commenting I’m getting fatter but not one of my auntie. She doesn’t want me to get thin! Haha. Ok. So curious of my size. Should get more workout and diet already!! LOL.

Currently chatting with Piggy. He still wants me to go polyclinic -.-“ I’m recovering alright Pig.

Still choosing on what to wear tomorrow, gotta look pretty! :D Haha. Mommy wearing pink?

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oh my..
Saturday, June 13, 2009


Fuck it!
Argh, is 12.51am and I can't get to sleep! I regret, seriously. I miss you already :( I'm starting to be sick now. Today's going to be draggy since mum is out to cook at Bukit Panjang, dad is out working, siblings out to _______ and if only Wan/Piggy (won't happen) calls and ask for a date out. Haish...

Fighting seems to be torturing for me.

On my bed, cuddling up in sweater, waiting for your call.
<3

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assume more, NEVER.
Friday, June 12, 2009



Today, I pathetically woke up early in the morning, took a bath, and woke up cousin, prepared to meet Piggy and his mum at Chinatown. It was 9.03 sharp. I was late, 3 minutes -.-“ Walk off to Sub Court and waited a few minutes for the lawyer. Pray hard nothing happens; the sentence was postponed again. 22nd June is the next called up. Damn! Do I have school on that day?
His mum is nice though :)

Well. Next, fight?

A: What are you doing?
B: Talking on the phone with C.
A: Late at night?! Go and sleep lah!
B: I was force to talk on the phone lah. So, yeah.

Here’s a conversation (example). Try to imagine that you’re C. B just happily accused you for forcing him/her to talk on the phone with you late at night when you’re sleepy and B is the one who wants to talk with you, or else... He/She’ll be down. A is a good friend of B any way and A doesn’t know C.

I was sadly being accused for forcing people to talk on the phone. Funny or what?! I’d rather go to bed than forcing you talking to me when the next day I have to wake up early. You happily said it was a joke? If it’s a joke, why would you tell her? Why would you even bother to tell her you’re being FORCE if it’s only a joke? Common Sense? Wait. Seeking attention huh?

For whatever reason that you have, STOP MAKING UP STORIES TO ATTRACT ATTENTION! I don’t lose anything if I never talk to you at night, so be gone! After this, you don’t have to torture yourself to make up stories about me forcing you and so on. Oh ya! Another thing before I completely forget, you promise and your sorry can’t do on me anymore. I’m sick and tired of you asking for forgiveness and don’t mean it at all, so better stop.

I just simply don’t TRUST most of the guys now (for whom I known).
Think for yourself. As a matured person. You want people to trust you but you seem not to keep your promises. Come on lar! People have brain to think. Once bitten twice shy. Get this idiom?
HUMANS! Freaking shit.

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12 June 2009
Thursday, June 11, 2009



Currently chatting with Piggy and a new friend, Khaiddin? Hee :) Fee meet a new friend today! Yay me! Haha. Nothing much went on today. As per normal, Arrayan just seems to be a clown for one whole day. Who paid him? LOL. Didn’t went out today, but tomorrow and Friday I guess yes, two important day for me.

Where’s cousin? I miss her!
Siti Amirah :(

Wait! There's a note for my dearest Piggy.

For all the things you’ve done, I sincerely say that you’re a great person in my life. Never think that I would replace you for another person in life because that can erode our happiness. You’re such a great, best, superb, friend, enemy, and lover to me. On this 12th June, Ma and me (hopefully) will be there standing by you whenever you need us. But, there’s a limit to where we can reached. Let’s just hope for the best outcome alright. ILY Piggy!

With love, Fee.

Let's end it here then since I got nothing else in mind. Hee.
Good Night People.

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migraine?
Tuesday, June 9, 2009



Currently catching up with Nash, new father. Haha.
Sorry for not updating, too lazy to update :) Fuck it! Migraine came back while having a talk with Piggy just now. Since when I have this migraine thingy?! Gosh, damn it! This stupid illness can make me go crazy. Ah! Drop the subject. I really do not know what to type, brain does not want to think.

Well, I guess I owe my nephew an apology since I went out and not accompanying playing computer games.

Arayan: Makucu nak gi maner?
Me: Nak keluar kejap. Ok?
Arayan: Abeh sape nak jage Arayan?
Me: Nenek kan ader.
Arayan: Abeh nenek tido?

If only you’re not in this situation right now, I’ve already brought you along with me. I’m sorry once again. Meet up with Piggy in the afternoon and went to Frontier Library to study; Chemistry. I think I almost forget everything. Haha. Time to buck up, can’t waste this 1 month holiday.

Guess I stop here for today, really cannot stand the pain.
Good night readers.

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g.t.f.h.o.o.h.
Thursday, June 4, 2009


Seriously, I have no mood to blog today.
Mum's getting on my nerve!

STOP BEING BIARS TO ME AND SIBLINGS!

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addicted.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009


Promised Aiman to upload the picture of the conversation. Haa! Here it is.


THANKS FOR THE FLOWERS GUYS!
To Aiman: I miss you too ok friend! Thanks for the ‘ugly’ flower. Haha.
To Piggy: Haha. Sorry can’t help you. She’s too stubborn to upload that picture. LOL.

I met a new friend today, Huiling. Yay me! LOL. Went off to Hwa Chong with Marzie and Huiling in the afternoon. Thought of looking around for 14th SLC members, but there were only a few, really really few. It was their first day for the 15th SLC badge. Looking at the enthusiasm, very low. Ha! Kay, whatever.

Around 4pm went off to Admiralty to meet Piggy. Had a tiring time with him. Walk non-stop just to look for a freaking sitting place, everywhere is occupied until one that is fucking far was empty. Next time, go and reserve a sit for me! Haha. Had a great time playing BINGO with Piggy :) Thanks dude.

Checked tagged. Firdaus replied. Awww! I miss him so much. I’m sorry, I can’t simple forget about the past, it’s so damn hard. I don’t know why. SORRY!!!

Currently chatting with Aiman and Piggy.
So yeah, updated. Haha.

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geeeez
Saturday, May 30, 2009


Spent the whole day @ Admiralty. Swing here, swing there like nobody business. Thanks to the Pig who carry me and make me go round and round. Haaa! Reached home around 2200 hours. Washed up, had my dinner and had a little chat with Hafiz.


Thanks for the note there. I’m stoned. Still missing him I guess; memories can’t be erased that easily. Well, I’m sorry for what happen between you and Natasha, all the best though. Hmm. Nothing much to talk about today; nothing interesting. I’m tired.

Currently I’m otf wit Piggy, then I’m off to bed.
Good night readers!

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Adly Haziq, HBD!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009



HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY PIGGY!

This dude here named, Adly, just turned seventeen. Hopefully you had fun just now. Sorry for not being able to make your day a memorable one; I'm seriously not good in planning a birthday suprise. Anyway, there's more people who did wished you a happy birthday ( not only the 2 sweet girls :D ), at least it makes you happy. I hope so?

Malay paper 1 just now was a disaster for me. I did a crappy composition. First time, only 1 piece of paper used for the section -.-" Clinic session was changed to feedback session for our class. Tomorrow will be another draggy day; will be in Rozana class, urgh! 2 more days for survival and 5 more days till the actual paper.


Nervous

I'm can't afford to go out anymore. Explained.
Now, I'm going to bed. Sleepy. TOO.
Good night!

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Reena, HBD!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009



Gotta wish my kembar a very HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!

Hunney, I'm totally sorry for being a late-wisher here. hope you had fun on this very sweet day. We'll definitely meet up and spend some time together soon. Have a great day hun!

Though I saw here just now, I totally forget that today is 26th. Gosh! So forgetful these days. Tomorrow will be another day. Being with dearest Monkey and Pig reeally cheer up my day, everyday. Thank You Guys; too great to be a good friend of mine. ILY.

Mother Tongue Intensive Prog. really weaken my brain to think of other subjects. I'm not learning anything from the feedback session. I did badly for the first day paper; it's really hard. I'm going to make it for today's paper. There's a clinic session tomorrow until 3pm and I'm going to meet dearest Pig after that. Huhu!

I met sweet ALY @ Bukit Batok. I miss her.
Another Long Day tomorrow. Good Night readers!

to MARZIE : haha. "aww soooo sweet" words will really kill me if you going to keep saying it. LOL. No matter what happen, you'll never be transparent girl! okay too much CRAP from Piggy already. He teaches me to talk nonsence. Scram him. I LOVE YOU ;)

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sorry please?



Its 1.20am now and my eyes are swollen.
I find myself failing each day. Falling and not getting up. I never forgive myself for what I’ve done these days. I don’t know why I’m changing to a bad person; in his eyes. I’m sorry. I do felt that too, not really bad, but totally different person.

I’m sorry I caused problems in your life. I’m sorry I made you cry. I’m sorry I worried you every night. I’m sorry I troubled you every morning. I’m sorry I gave you frustrations. I’m sorry I made you angry. I’m sorry for shouting at you. I’m sorry for scolding you. I’m sorry for being mad at you for a small thing. I’m sorry I cried in front of you. I’m sorry because I’m too sensitive. I’m sorry I hurt your feelings. I’m sorry if my words break your heart. I’m sorry if I lied to you in any way. I’m sorry for being a jerk. I’m sorry for being a criminal of your life. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done towards you that made you feels bad. I’M SORRY.

Things get worse each and every day. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like giving up being a partner in your life. You definitely deserve someone much better than me. Things aren’t going the way we wanted. These are the challenges waiting for us. Next, bigger and tougher. Hold on my hands tight if you want me to stay. Don’t let go, cause I will fall any time soon, and that’s I called THE END.

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decision making
Sunday, May 24, 2009



Sorry for not been updating this few days. I’ve been busy and lazy to update. Been out to meet people; I’m still not concentrating on my work! Tomorrow starts the day for Mother Tongue intensive. Thumb, leg, fingers,body? going to be numb as sitting hours in the library, oh gosh! Have to persevere on; 1st June is Mother Tongue O level paper. I’m going to do my best and not having to retake in November.

Dilemma.

What’s really the meaning of true LOVE in the first place? I know I shouldn’t been talking about this shitty thing, but just want to make this post long. Ha! Crap. Talking about this, I’m still counting on my single days – 7 months and still counting. And soon it’s going to be a year :D

Yes, I have to admit looking at other couples; it just reminds me of the past. Still, I have to move on no matter what happened. It’s not easy but I have to be strong going through all the challenges. Should I or should I not continue? Hmm.

Okay, let’s drop the subject before its gone further and further and it’s going to be out of point. But I really want to know the meaning of true love. People keep saying sacrifice, sacrifice, but do they really sacrifice for the love ones? People are out of their mind if every single bits of things they going to sacrifice for it. Not talking about those marriages but this puppy love. Shits. Full of shits.

LOL.

Currently messaging with Sharaze. Huhu. I’m missed! :D

Went to meet A @ Admiralty just now. At last, everything is settled and no problem is still hanging in the air waiting to be solved. Now, it’s my turn to do my job – make a decision FEE.

I’m still not prepared for tomorrow day. I have to turn in soon due to the tiredness of walking the whole Admiralty just to find AN UNCLE THAT HAS A _____ FACE RIDING A BICYCLE SELLING ILLEGAL CIGARETTE. -.-“ Thanks to that A, my feet are cramped! urgh. I'm going to bite his head. Haha.

Good night readers.
Love, fee :)

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still can't let go?
Thursday, May 21, 2009


Feeling so lethargic; idk why. Something just bothering me but idk what.


I MISS YOU more and more as days went by. WHY?

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Md Firdaus B MJ
Wednesday, May 20, 2009



I miss last time. Really.

I miss him.
I miss his smile.
I miss his cute face.
I miss his stupid jokes.

Oh gosh. I have to move on no matter what. He’ll be going soon (to somewhere far), and that time I’m going to miss him hell-like!
How can I forget you totally when ibu still talk about you?

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what a day.
Sunday, May 17, 2009


FEE JATOH LAGI LAH!!

Went to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve with siblings.
Unfortunately, I trip brother's leg and fell. DARN!

I'm tired. I'm sleepy. Good Night.

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Black Hole.


Should I?
I’m confused. Well, I waited an hour for you, all alone and I didn’t complain much; but you? 15mins and you start complaining like shit. Feeling unfair here. So be it, yeah.


Had a walk from Lavender to Beach Rd. W brought his Converse shoe for $49.90. Bought 2 pairs of jeans that cost me $50. Then, meet his 3 friends at Marina Stairs – the Mat RepS. Their language use was like _______. I couldn’t stand it when they talked crap; primary school talking -.-“ cut it short. No use talking about ass-holes here.

Gave a reason to leave after they ate. Who wants to walk with them? Shitty. Took train to Tiong Bahru and went to Tiong Bahru Plaza. Bought 2 tickets to watch the STAR TREK. The show was freaking long; it nice though. At least my money was not wasted unlike watching the UNINVITED :o

Got to catch 2 more shows; Angle and Demons / Jangan Tegur.
(Wait long long)

Took cab home. Reach home 2345hrs. Mom and Dad kept quite and talked to me normally. I wonder why they didn’t scold me?

Chocolate Almond from Chewy Junior.
Strawberry _____ from Chewy Junior.
Oh ya! I met Batman! I miss him lerh.
Good night readers.
Having a date with siblings tomorrow morning at 7am at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve for a jog.

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a _ _ _
Friday, May 15, 2009



Jealousy? Envy?
I couldn’t understand what the need in you is.

Come on, be matured. If you want to be the best, you have to defeat the best and accept the fact that you aren’t the best yet. There are many people out there who are way better than you and now, only one person who won you and you can’t accept it? Then, forget about facing the rest of the challenges that you going to faced in life. I had enough of you reacting this way, if you want to continue, so be it. That’s your way, your life.

~~~~~~

YOU came back after 8days of 'holiday'. You lied, you disappoint me. And then, you came back with a story. It was nothing to be surprised about; all planned. At last, I won the challenge of changing you. Thank you GOD; you gave me the right path of turning him into a better person. Your wish now was mine before and please make it a reality for me since I can’t achieve it in the past.

Let's achieve what we always wanted in life. TOGETHER.

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Tagged by Reena hun.
Thursday, May 14, 2009


1.Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
- Umm, forehead.

2. How did you feel when you wake up this morning?
- Sleepy :/

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- Umm, with family yesterday.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Nope.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
- Maybe?

6. Have you ever had a best friend who's the opposite sex?
- Yes, a lot.

7. Do you want someone dead?
- No, of course.

8. What does your last message says?
- “Pergi tanyer mama.. haha”

9. What are you thinking of right now?
- Adly Haziq :(

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- yes, definitely. HIM.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
- 3 am

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- No idea. Not mine.

13. Is someone on your mind?
- Yes.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- W.

15. Tag 10 random people to do this survey.
1) Marzie
2) Syikin
3) Natasha
4) Hafiz
5) Kid
6) D. Afiq
7) Faiz
8) Fazira
9) Kerina
10) Alyssa

16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
- She’s single.

17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
- Female.

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
- No, definitely not.

19. What is no. 1 studying about?
- Everything I study except Biology.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
- Most was just now; or not randomly.

21. Is no. 4 single?
- No. Happy attached with his small baby girl :D

22. Say something about no. 3.
- Love to talk to herself :0

23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
- I don’t think it’s a good choice.

24. Descibe no. 9.
- Pretty! Love her hair. She’s owesome!

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
- Idc, cause simply they won’t.

26. Do you like no. 8?
- Yes! A superb, wonderful girlfriend :D

I've done my part.
Now yours!

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family gathering on special day


Gave daddy a big surprise at home with cake dined in the middle of dining table with candles around – big sister’s idea. Daddy gave a shocked exp. Haha! Well, I never saw he was this happy on his birthday.

Though you are a hot temper dad, I still love you. You went through a lot with Mommy, fight and all because of me. Thank you. Appreciate your kindness for the 16 years you have brought me up ;)

15 candles; means nothing
with the birthday cake in the middle
chocolate
birthday daddy and wife :)
Everyone got ready after eating the marvellous cake; Royal Chocolate Cake. Thanks sis! 2 cars and a van drove through the PIE and stopped at Bedok – Spicez Cafe. We had our dinner cum supper there.

I ordered chicken wrap. Only had half and watermelon juice and I’m so fulled. Continue to eat bits of other’s food and when on bloated. Luckily I stopped before I vomited out everything. So yeah, was home at 11+pm.

mango milkshake
mummy
______ chicken; arab meal
western bbq chicken
rossa lasagne
chicken wrap
13 May 2009:
Happy 47th Birthday Daddy!
Happy 40th Birthday to Ibu Rutina!
14 May 2009:
Happy 19th Birthday Redzwan
Happy 12th Birthday Nur Aqidah
Should just keep a short and sweet post.
Good night readers, tomorrow will be another long day in school.

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