I get a MMS from Piggy while otw to Changi. Here it is:
I never regret having to take your number from ahkym. Never regret shedding those tears. Never regret the fun we had. Lastly never regret falling in love with u. U make me believe in love after being hurt by Dee. Make me believe that I could have a special someone in my heart. However hurt I am. My love for u is still there. Never have I love someone like u. U are the one light that guides me thru the dark times I'm having now. The one who makes me still believe in life no matter what comes to me. Nothing could take the light away not even the prettiest of all girls or the most well mannered one. I need u. Without u I’m just a guy unhappy with life. U made me look forward to life. I can’t believe I’m crying right now. I may look tough outside but inside I need love n care like other people. I’m never going to leave u. My hearts broken so be it. Time n u could heal it. I’m not perfect. I know that I’m unlucky in love but u is the 1 who made me think that love is not bout luck but fate. I don’t what to say b. Even without the willingness to live I know that I still love u. U may lie& cheat to me but I’ll still be here yearning for your love. I’m sorry I ruin your friendship but he’s trying to ruin our love. What else can I do? I can’t think b. U saw how happy I am just now. Who else can make me feel that way? Just now I released all my doubts, questions, pain to u. U saw rite. I’ve done bad things in my life n maybe this is god's punishment for me. Don’t worry I won’t give up. As long as you're here by my side. I don’t care about my broken dreams right now. I just want to make sure the girl of my life doesn’t leave me. Adly love fee. Even a gun to my head won’t make me change that sentence.
This words and phrases never let my tears down for the very first time. I’m sorry. I’m too mad at myself. Guess I can’t blame you for what happen. It’s me. I shouldn’t have gone in his life before this. I didn’t know this would happen. People advice me that let us be TRUE AND BE HURT rather than LIE AND BE HAPPY. I insisted. I continued lying and hurt both feelings. This just feel suck! I can’t think, can’t smile like I always do till everything is settled. This argument has been going on for days and it’s still not settled yet.
You may think these are all sweet words, all I can say it’s all up to you to believe and since you should know what is right is what is wrong. I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feeling and all I have to do is lie. Id didn’t know it was the wrong thing to do till the day everything happened. I was damn afraid to lose either of you. I’m sorry. Lying makes me have both of you but in the end I lost one.
DANNI AL-AZRI, 
I just wished you could forgive me. You’re the one who asked me to move on life while I’m far back thinking about the past. You also lied to me remember when you said you’re single but the truth is that you’re attached with Farah? You lied because you wanted to get closer and to know me more since you know that if you were to say that you’re attached, I will ignore you. This goes same to me. I know it hurts a lot, I’ve felt it before, but I have to. I have my own reason for lying. True enough? Promise me just one thing, just ONE. Don’t ever hurt yourself again. I still keep my words. Remember them? I’ll never break my promise to you only until you have found someone that could replace the position of mine. Once again, please forgive for my wrong doings. If I could forgive you, why can’t you?
ADLY HAZIQ,
You suffer too much didn’t you? You could just leave if you want to because all the fault is not yours. Blame it to me because I’m in the wrong. I don’t know what else to say. Same goes to you. I’m worried for you either. For your safety after you told me what happen the past two days when you were with Arepp. That really rooted me to the ground. I assured you once, after that, it’s gone. I’m fucking sorry. I don’t mean to hurt you like I’ve said, but ... I’ll meet you one day to explain everything, if I can. All the best for your sentence on Monday sweets. I’m sorry I can be with you, let ma be. I have to go for more important things. Wish you best of luck.
Azri messaged me just now, telling me what happen to him. I’m sorry. Rest well and I hope you recover soon Az. Tc! Guess that’s all I could typed for now. I can’t think much more. Blank. Tomorrow’s brother and family’s coming back from Hong Kong Disneyland. Freak, they should have a gift for me :P
Till here.
Good night readers.
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