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Always have high self-esteem and confidence; to achieve what you wished for.
back to square one
Thursday, July 9, 2009



I’m falling continuously. That’s when shit happens. Why am I falling in love again? I’m not supposed to. She knows. I’m sorry. Needing the light to push me forward. I’m living in darkness of people happiness. Why? Grrr. What’s wrong with me?

It’s less than 3 months till O’s and I’m not improving. I’m just declining each and every single day, even till my prelims. My results are all gone from bad to worse. I’m sick of being the worse in the group. I felt like crying seeing others achieving what they always wanted and me? Just insulting myself again and again.

Let’s just say I’M LOOSING HOPE.

All I have in my brain now are questions but no answer to it. Who does? Myself, I know. WAKE UP FEE! LACKING OF TIME, WHY DO YOU STILL WANT TO WASTE YOUR TIME ON STUPID THINGS WHEN YOU COULD STUDY HARD NOW AND ACHIEVE WHAT YOU WANT LATER? WAKE UP! I’ve woke up from my dream since the last paper was out. Seriously. All I did was sit there, and be quiet. Not talking to anyone. I’m ready to accept reality and be in ITE instead of my dream school.

Hurt Angry Sad Insulting Disappointment

To someone,

Here’s a reply. Yes, you’re true that friends come and go. So do I. After what you’ve told me to, I’ve decided to leave but I kept thinking about the promise we made. Will it still be true or just let us just say the end? I’m confused by all the things going on around me. I know, so do you. You take care of yourself and be a good boyfriend to her. I quit loving people. It makes no sense at time when it’s all because of studies, but it does to me. Friend, don’t quit because quitters never win, winners never quit. You still have time. I’m just advising you and hoping you could be a successor in life. Remember, you're the one who give me hope, asked me to move on when we started knowing each other and now, you want to give up. I'm begging you DON'T DO IT. All the best.
I love you, friend.

"If you are going to gain anything in life, gain a friend, they will always be there, and that makes all the difference in the world."

From a friend.

What past is history, what’s waiting ahead is future. I’ll strive for the best. I’m done here. I’m going. BYE!


Here's a reply to tagboard:

Epi: Hey, so you're Az's friend. Oh ok. Anyway, nothing happen. We're fine. Thanks for asking :)

Adlyboy: We'll meet up soon. Don't worry. We have something to talk about anyway.

Sirin: Girl, O's still haven't end and that's mean my papers haven't state to the end. I miss you. All the best for the left papers sweet :)

Azri: I know. Sometimes I do wonder what so nice about the music that I listen to that attracted you so much. Maybe it's the reason of us for not separating and leaving each other right? Not all we want will come true in life. It will either takes time to happen or it will just not happen to us. Let's just hope for the best ok. Remember, don't give up hope yet. Stay strong. Promise me that and I will do it too. If you could endure a life with me, why not your life yourself? I will aim for Poly, you don't worry ok. If I can make it, you can make it. Update me with the dates of you migrating ok. Tkcr friend :)

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