I want you

2009-11-15T19:02:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps! I've finally moved.

Reasons: Oh, freaking lazy to blog more.
But this blog will stay put as long as I'm here. Too many sweet yet sour memories to be kept as my childhood days :D

Love, Fee :D

last and last

2009-07-16T23:53:00.004+08:00

This will be my last post till end of O levels. When you think it’s long, it’s really not. I left with 3months, maybe less, to buck up on every subject.

I’ve not been spending time at home with family or with Mr Turtle. I’m sorry. Been going thru and fro for night study, thanks to Mr Turtle who have been sending and picking me up from school late at night. I want to achieve whatever I’ve been wishing/wanting for all this while. I don’t want to regret after studying for 4years. I should keep this post short and sweet.

Hope family, friends and Mr Turtle can give me all the support i need.

I’ll be back on 12/13th November 2009 (probably after my last paper).
MISS ME PEOPLE! BYE!

pppeeeennnnnaaatttt taw!

2009-07-13T02:52:00.004+08:00

I’m sleepy. I’ll update tomorrow if I have time. Good Night.

Mr Turtle, my owns.

“ Da ader jantan pun nak tengok jantan orang?!”

Bodoh peh BITCH in MRT.

totally fun out

2009-07-10T23:54:00.005+08:00

Reached home at 1030pm. I’m tired of walking long distance. Tomorrow's plan is just jogging anf studying. Will be meeting Ma with Turtle (*Piggy’s new name is now turtle. I’m the pig -.-“). Ma asked Turtle how am I doing in my studies, he lied just to make her satisfied because I'll get scolding from Ma if my studies dropped. What I told him was that I’m going to make ma proud instead of his son making her proud. Haha.

So, okay. Today was the best, fun, and sweet, whatever. Went to meet Turtle at Admiralty. Waited for him to make up while I search for some polytechnics courses. Trying to apply for DPA. Looking at my results, I don’t think I’ll get through. Let's just try luck. Went out at 5pm from his crib. Sit around under his void deck then took train to Clarke Quay. Sit, have a talk and a lil bit of camwhore; too bad most of the pictures are not nice. I know I’m choosy, so what? Now, I’ve told him everything! Yes! No more secrets. Heee :)

One ______ poem he created. I laugh non-stop. He's trying to be Danni Al-Azri, but failed -.-"

You're like the water in the sea,
the turtle is looking at you and me!

That's where he got his turtle name from. Haha! Stupid, I know but idc. Waited for ibu to come back home from sister’s place, she showed me this Puppet video. Copyrighted by my pretty ass sis. Enjoy! (This is a stupid video!)

Enjoyed? Haha. Like I've said, this video is stupid for a 26yearold married woman to make this kind of puppet show. Duh!

I'm sleepy and tired. Turning in now, good night!

back to square one

2009-07-09T16:42:00.006+08:00

I’m falling continuously. That’s when shit happens. Why am I falling in love again? I’m not supposed to. She knows. I’m sorry. Needing the light to push me forward. I’m living in darkness of people happiness. Why? Grrr. What’s wrong with me?

It’s less than 3 months till O’s and I’m not improving. I’m just declining each and every single day, even till my prelims. My results are all gone from bad to worse. I’m sick of being the worse in the group. I felt like crying seeing others achieving what they always wanted and me? Just insulting myself again and again.

Let’s just say I’M LOOSING HOPE.

All I have in my brain now are questions but no answer to it. Who does? Myself, I know. WAKE UP FEE! LACKING OF TIME, WHY DO YOU STILL WANT TO WASTE YOUR TIME ON STUPID THINGS WHEN YOU COULD STUDY HARD NOW AND ACHIEVE WHAT YOU WANT LATER? WAKE UP! I’ve woke up from my dream since the last paper was out. Seriously. All I did was sit there, and be quiet. Not talking to anyone. I’m ready to accept reality and be in ITE instead of my dream school.

Hurt Angry Sad Insulting Disappointment

To someone,

Here’s a reply. Yes, you’re true that friends come and go. So do I. After what you’ve told me to, I’ve decided to leave but I kept thinking about the promise we made. Will it still be true or just let us just say the end? I’m confused by all the things going on around me. I know, so do you. You take care of yourself and be a good boyfriend to her. I quit loving people. It makes no sense at time when it’s all because of studies, but it does to me. Friend, don’t quit because quitters never win, winners never quit. You still have time. I’m just advising you and hoping you could be a successor in life. Remember, you're the one who give me hope, asked me to move on when we started knowing each other and now, you want to give up. I'm begging you DON'T DO IT. All the best.
I love you, friend.

"If you are going to gain anything in life, gain a friend, they will always be there, and that makes all the difference in the world."

From a friend.

What past is history, what’s waiting ahead is future. I’ll strive for the best. I’m done here. I’m going. BYE!

Here's a reply to tagboard:
Epi: Hey, so you're Az's friend. Oh ok. Anyway, nothing happen. We're fine. Thanks for asking :)

Adlyboy: We'll meet up soon. Don't worry. We have something to talk about anyway.

Sirin: Girl, O's still haven't end and that's mean my papers haven't state to the end. I miss you. All the best for the left papers sweet :)

Azri: I know. Sometimes I do wonder what so nice about the music that I listen to that attracted you so much. Maybe it's the reason of us for not separating and leaving each other right? Not all we want will come true in life. It will either takes time to happen or it will just not happen to us. Let's just hope for the best ok. Remember, don't give up hope yet. Stay strong. Promise me that and I will do it too. If you could endure a life with me, why not your life yourself? I will aim for Poly, you don't worry ok. If I can make it, you can make it. Update me with the dates of you migrating ok. Tkcr friend :)

I miss you!

2009-07-08T16:55:00.009+08:00

Hey! Fee’s back blogging. Prelim 1 finally over. Fweeuuh! I flung my prelims to the extreme. Just feel like whacking whatever thing that is in front of me. Tears will starts to flow down when H will start calling up people to his office. We’ll see. Next is to buck up and brush up everything from the start (must). Haha. Prelim 2 is waiting.

Well, many things happen this few days during prelims. Wait, wait.

Must we lie in loving someone? Ha! Come on lah, if you’re not willing to wait then I’m fine with it. There’s millions out there anyway. I’m so over you right now, don’t you worry okay. I’ll be gone from your life as soon as I can. Last long with your beloved BABY cause I don’t think I care much now. I still have others who care and love me. So yeah, your loss is not so bad after all. Oh ya, anyway, thanks for everything though you did nothing much, just that your LIES JER YANG MELEBIH! Rofl. Not to be rude, just to state the facts here. Apology if it hurts you in a way or another.

Done with one, another one comes.
5am, my phone rang. It was someone who used to fuck me upside down when I was with him/her. Came back to apologise for his past deeds. How? Why the past does came back after a long time of not being together? It’s been continuing after one’s left. Let’s just go through it.

Piggy is pestering me to talk about him in my blog. Well, jealousy acts when I talk about other guys on my blog. WTH lah you?! Seriously I have no idea what to talk about. I’ll do a composition about you then I’ll post on my blog ok? (if that happens, great!) Hahaha.

He wanted this photo to be put up so much -.-"

Applying for DPA starts today. I wonder if I could make it if I were to apply for it. ANDand night study starts next week from Monday to Thursday, 6pm-9pm. I’m applying for it. I really need to buck up. TO MY DEAREST PIGGY, WILL ONLY BE MEETING YOU ON WEEKENDS OKAY!

I’m tired. I need a rest. BYE!

away

2009-06-30T22:55:00.002+08:00

Fee will be on HIATUS till prelims are over.
tkcr.

soccer match

2009-06-27T23:49:00.005+08:00

Went to meet Sirin and Lulu at library in the morning. Once again, study for a minutes and the rest are rubbish. As per normal lah when girls meet, they went all crazy. Wouldn’t want to elaborate more, I’m just lazy.

At 3.30pm took bus to Juying. The boys having soccer match at my school’s field. It finished at 6pm. Saw Radin. It’s been a long time since I met her, since the last netball training. Oh my! I miss netball already. LOL. I’ve always been a toy there when Rahul’s three brothers are there. Grrr. Anyway, they lost! :P

Hein: Iqah balik lah!

Abg Adib: Kau tunggu Rahul ehk? Nak naik motor?
*calling his mom*
Abg Adib: Mak, iqah ader kat sini. Call maklong Minah. Cakap anak dier ader dekat sini, tunggu Rahul antar balik.

Mak Oteh: Dier nak balik sini tak?

I headed home with Hapheez, Amin, Radin and Kim. Was soo frustrated! Next was Hapheez turn -.-“ IN THE BUS!

Hapheez: Fee! Da besar kau nak kawin dengan Khadri ehk? Kan that time dier cakap dengan mak kau dekat bus stop. Ha! You cannot hide anymore :P

WTF?! Making funny jokes is his thang. Can’t be blame. Damn this idiotic ass. I’m tired and my mouth is freaking pain. Bodoh -.-" Bye!

the truth

2009-06-27T03:24:00.005+08:00

I love them both, but can't have them both.
It's tearing me apart!
My former joy and present boy:
Both have got my heart.
I have to choose, so I must lose
someone I really love.
It feels like dirt
that I must hurt a guy that I dream of.
Why this must be I cannot see;
I only know I must.
Each might endure, for I am sure
that this is ,love not lust.
I weep and wail to no avail;
I can't say no to either.
But if I can't tell what I want,
Could that mean I want neither?

Maybe this speaks the truth, like once I've said. If i have to choose one and another gets hurt. I'd rather leave both than choose anyone. I don't want to see anyone's heart is broken by me. Let me suffer inner and while I can hold on, I'll hold. Don't worry.

I'll mend every piece of that broken pieces of my heart all by myself without you as you know, you'll always judge me the things you'll never know.

I HATE YOU!
My temper has gone to the max and I can't stand they way my life being patient with you.

Sirin's crib was fun.

2009-06-26T23:17:00.005+08:00

Hi Readers!

Someone has been pestering me to update about the Sentosa outing, here goes. Point form will be better rather than typing out the whole story, you’ll sleep.

· Meet up with the girls at Boon Lay MRT station around 3+pm.
· Took the train to Habourfront, Vivo, Sentosa.
· Reached Sentosa around 4pm.
· Get changed and bought a ball which cost us $6.
· Bored enough? Played volleyball, captain’s ball and hide the ball in the sand?!
· Too boring! Played water polo. Marzie who doesn’t want to get in the water, went in the water first. LOL. Shiykin didn’t want to get wet since she doesn’t bring extra undergarments -.-“
· She did get wet at last. Haha.
· Ball drift away from Marzie, who didn’t want to get it ‘cause it was too far. I had to swim to get the ball -________- “YAY! FEE! Go fee go!” Guess what? Shiykin was cheering.
· Played with sand, making alphabets and camwhore. Well, it’s the best part of all. Everyone was covered in sand.
· Was nearly 7, went to took a bath.
· Had dinner at Habourfront. The chicken rice sucks big time, no taste -.-“
· Home sweet home. Slept at 3.

That’s the end of the story of The Girls Outing. Haha. Boring I know. So? Success anyway. Here's are the combination of the pictures taken at Sentosa.

25th June 2009
Slept sister house since no one accompany her. I felt totally different there. Seriously different. The second I stepped in, my hand was heavy. Lenguh giler! I can’t get a nice sleep that night since I can’t make this the pain stop. The more I make it rest, the more pain I felt. I don’t know what’s wrong but it’s freaking weird. Went I was out from sister’s house, the pain wasn’t there anymore. WTF?!

26th June 2009 /today
Went to Sirin’s crib at 3.30pm. I was late. Sorry. We’re supposed to study but instead we updated each other with stories and I had my late lunch with her. At 4.30pm, we went down to play badminton. Well, unfortunately saw Abang Budi and his friend. He joined us. 6pm we went home. Having he to join us was real fun :) Rahul wanted to drop by, but he only did at night when I was leaving. Pathetic ass.

"Eye contact!"
"Communication!"
"You sucks!"

Here are some pictures taken at her crib.

This week is kind of boring since the outing doesn’t really go out the way I wanted too. Anw, I’m going to meet Sirin and Lulu tomorrow morning to mug, mug and mug like freak. Next will be meeting whoever you are ok. Bye!

2009-06-24T21:42:00.005+08:00

Just came back from outing to Sentosa.

It's was fun but kind of boring though, thanks to those who PAITAO -.-"

Will update tomorrow, . I need the pictures ShaSha :D

outs - Sentosa

2009-06-24T21:42:00.004+08:00

Just came back from outing to Sentosa.
It's was fun but kind of boring though, thanks to those who PAITAO -.-"

Will update tomorrow, super tired. I need the pictures ShaSha :D
Good nigth peeps!

I miss you.

HBN!

2009-06-21T20:56:00.008+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday Nadyra!
May all your wish come true babe! Take Care and all the best :D

Nothing much happen today. Went out to meet Marzie at Pioneer Mall at 5pm. Finished up Physics (most lah). Share stories, bought fries and double chocolate. Thanks Marzie for the listener ear :) Walk to Xingnan busstop and went home. Brother’s home! No prezzie -.-“

So yeah, that’s it for today. I know, boring. That’s life!

Anyway, Happy Fathers' Day!
Dad, thank you for everything. Although I do hate you at time because you simple made my life miserable, you’re still my one and only dad. No one else could replace you. Thanks for taking care of me for the past 16 years. I love you!

[edited]
Well, catch up with dearest Khadri just now. Maybe will be going for an outing, I really miss him! Had some webcam session with him. Snap some photo’s which he doesn’t even realise. Here’s it. (Ignore the stupid conversation)

Idiot basterd. Haha. Bye.

apology.

2009-06-21T02:58:00.006+08:00

I’m seriously getting fatter. Eat, sleep, eat, sleep. WTF?! Just came back from Changi with parents, lepak there. Quite a lot of people fishing but no fish -.-“ The water is shallow, duh! I don’t know why I’m freaking tired. Should get some rest. Anw, thanks mom and dad. You make me laugh after the rain of tears poured down at home. Waking up tomorrow morning to have a jog alone den meeting dearest Marzie to catch up with her. I miss her.

I get a MMS from Piggy while otw to Changi. Here it is:

I never regret having to take your number from ahkym. Never regret shedding those tears. Never regret the fun we had. Lastly never regret falling in love with u. U make me believe in love after being hurt by Dee. Make me believe that I could have a special someone in my heart. However hurt I am. My love for u is still there. Never have I love someone like u. U are the one light that guides me thru the dark times I'm having now. The one who makes me still believe in life no matter what comes to me. Nothing could take the light away not even the prettiest of all girls or the most well mannered one. I need u. Without u I’m just a guy unhappy with life. U made me look forward to life. I can’t believe I’m crying right now. I may look tough outside but inside I need love n care like other people. I’m never going to leave u. My hearts broken so be it. Time n u could heal it. I’m not perfect. I know that I’m unlucky in love but u is the 1 who made me think that love is not bout luck but fate. I don’t what to say b. Even without the willingness to live I know that I still love u. U may lie& cheat to me but I’ll still be here yearning for your love. I’m sorry I ruin your friendship but he’s trying to ruin our love. What else can I do? I can’t think b. U saw how happy I am just now. Who else can make me feel that way? Just now I released all my doubts, questions, pain to u. U saw rite. I’ve done bad things in my life n maybe this is god's punishment for me. Don’t worry I won’t give up. As long as you're here by my side. I don’t care about my broken dreams right now. I just want to make sure the girl of my life doesn’t leave me. Adly love fee. Even a gun to my head won’t make me change that sentence.

This words and phrases never let my tears down for the very first time. I’m sorry. I’m too mad at myself. Guess I can’t blame you for what happen. It’s me. I shouldn’t have gone in his life before this. I didn’t know this would happen. People advice me that let us be TRUE AND BE HURT rather than LIE AND BE HAPPY. I insisted. I continued lying and hurt both feelings. This just feel suck! I can’t think, can’t smile like I always do till everything is settled. This argument has been going on for days and it’s still not settled yet.

You may think these are all sweet words, all I can say it’s all up to you to believe and since you should know what is right is what is wrong. I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feeling and all I have to do is lie. Id didn’t know it was the wrong thing to do till the day everything happened. I was damn afraid to lose either of you. I’m sorry. Lying makes me have both of you but in the end I lost one.

DANNI AL-AZRI,
I just wished you could forgive me. You’re the one who asked me to move on life while I’m far back thinking about the past. You also lied to me remember when you said you’re single but the truth is that you’re attached with Farah? You lied because you wanted to get closer and to know me more since you know that if you were to say that you’re attached, I will ignore you. This goes same to me. I know it hurts a lot, I’ve felt it before, but I have to. I have my own reason for lying. True enough? Promise me just one thing, just ONE. Don’t ever hurt yourself again. I still keep my words. Remember them? I’ll never break my promise to you only until you have found someone that could replace the position of mine. Once again, please forgive for my wrong doings. If I could forgive you, why can’t you?

ADLY HAZIQ,
You suffer too much didn’t you? You could just leave if you want to because all the fault is not yours. Blame it to me because I’m in the wrong. I don’t know what else to say. Same goes to you. I’m worried for you either. For your safety after you told me what happen the past two days when you were with Arepp. That really rooted me to the ground. I assured you once, after that, it’s gone. I’m fucking sorry. I don’t mean to hurt you like I’ve said, but ... I’ll meet you one day to explain everything, if I can. All the best for your sentence on Monday sweets. I’m sorry I can be with you, let ma be. I have to go for more important things. Wish you best of luck.

Azri messaged me just now, telling me what happen to him. I’m sorry. Rest well and I hope you recover soon Az. Tc! Guess that’s all I could typed for now. I can’t think much more. Blank. Tomorrow’s brother and family’s coming back from Hong Kong Disneyland. Freak, they should have a gift for me :P

Till here.
Good night readers.

oh GOD, help me.

2009-06-19T10:52:00.004+08:00

Had Biology lesson just now. We did Skill 3 on planning an experiment. It wasn’t so bad since this was the second time. I got full marks for Skill 2 :D Hurray! LOL -.-“

Mum’s out. Dad’s working. Brother and family flew off at 7 in the morning just now. I kind of miss the two kids at home, will be babysitting them today if they weren’t out. Holidays will be over soon and Prelims are just starting. I’m totally not ready for it. Catch up with cousin’s yesterday. Hopes she’s doing just fine in JJC. Shall meet up with her soon, totally miss her.

Piggy is still sleeping like a pig in his muddy bed. Shall wake him up later. Well, today’s plan:

· Meet piggy
· Watch movie, Ghost of Girlfriends
· Visit cousin and meet the new born baby

I really don’t know if today’s plan will work out because mum will always ruin it with her own plan. -.-“ Will see.

Currently chatting with Az. Thanks for everything dude! The pictures and all, it was awesome to get all the edited pictures. Haha. Crazy boy. Oh ya! Anyway, I’m going to beat you in the game, so no worry :P

Geez, I have to apologise about yesterday's night Az. I seriously ran out of thoughts when you asked me that question. I can't help it but every answer was/wasn't the truth. figure it out. I'm totally in a mess of life. I don't know what to do. I guess I'll leave both of you to peace, that will only be the grestest of all things I could do rather than huting anyone of you. I'm sorry. Will be gone soon. Bye.

Boredom strikes now.

take a break

2009-06-18T12:45:00.003+08:00

Well, I seriously don’t get enough sleep. Eye-bags are getting worse. Now, vomiting out whatever that goes in. Not stomach flu please! This suck, totally. It has been days since I last slept early; I’ve been sleeping after 5 this 2 days. Grrr. I want to rest; let me try to get some fucking good sleep can?

[edited]

Arghhh!! I just woke up from my nap. People just can’t see me taking some rest. Call, call call. Just eat durian and drank up my left over soya bean. Still, this just don’t seems right for my stomach. Can I just don’t eat since nothing is right for it? Or may be I think I just make an appointment at polyclinic if it’s going to get worse.

Additional Math was just as horrible as the other three Sciences for me. take a look at the O level last year paper, fuuhhh! “You have to at least know how to do 80% of the questions. Prelim is coming, remember!” Let me guess, I can even get the second question right and asked me to proceed on? Forget it man. Ha. I just feel like giving up but I don’t want to, yes very complicated life! I was almost half dead when Mr Koh extend the lesson HALF AND HOUR more. Haha :D

Just wish that he could release us faster.

Full of numbers and fomulas. Grrr
When I get bored, I draw :)

Ohya! Anyway, I met Firdaus, Mr Hottie ;), outside school while otw to bus stop with ShaSha :D Super happy. I just can’t get over him even though it’s after a year we’ve not been together. How tell me?! she just love him like her own daughter, damn her. Haish! Don’t fly over can? Because I’m going to miss you so much. Boo hoo!

Guess that’s all. Mum’s out. I’m babysitting this 2 naughty fellow at home while brother’s sleeping. Mum just ruin my plan, I can’t meet Piggy today. Brother’s and family flying over to Hong Kong Disneyland despite the H1N1 virus. Pray hard will do great. Have fun peeps. Bring home some things for me :D

Danni Al-Azri

2009-06-16T23:05:00.001+08:00

Love, love is not something to be played around to fool people around.

I seriously quit falling in love. I had enough of every guy words. Sweet talk doesn’t work on me anymore. Now I realise, I’m too soft hearted to believe everything people said. I’m wrong in this. I know. You know my weakness and if you really love me, you wouldn’t want to take my weakness to build your happiness. You once gave me hope, now you ruin it yourself.

I’m not posting much, this is between me and him. Guess, it might be the end of us. I’m sorry if this words are too harsh for you to take in. It’s for us. A good one.

I’d rather be dead than to have fallen in love again.

wish and hope

2009-06-16T11:23:00.003+08:00

>.<"

Pissed! Biology class was cancelled last minute. It's a sigh that I had not stepped out my house yet. Just finished with house chores; thons of clothes have to be fold. Might be going out later in the afternoon to hospital. Cousin gave birth yesterday at 9pm.

Kak Irah, congratulations on your second child.
Will meet up soon to meet the new born baby :) Wondering how handsome it will be; if only he would he like your first son, which I had forgotten the name. Ha! Take good care of yourself then!

Sis would be going to Indonesia this evening. Mom, I want to follow! Damn, stupid school and lessons! Missing people in kampong too much already. Hopefully mom and dad would make up their mind and proceed on with the plan. With that I guess I'll be leaving Sg from Friday to Sunday - that's only an IF!

Guess I won't be meeting Piggy today due to something on; both of us. Have to wake him up soon, he has a date with 'Eileen' to find job! Ha. Paitao lagi -.-" Currently chatting with Azri (a new friend, wonderful mate) - thanks for the songs dude! :)

game-ing

2009-06-14T05:16:00.004+08:00

Addicted to ACROWARS!
All thanks to Hapheez and Hakim. Love you guys. Ohya, thanks for cheering me up. Stupid iron, ruin my favourite dress. Damn it.

Okay, Fee stop and sleep. It's 5.20 in the morning. I'm turning in. BYE!

get on diet.

2009-06-14T01:20:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Bukit Panjang with daddy. I’m tired and restless.

I woke up extremely late today. Breatheless while watching television. Piggy and Sirin called up. I sound terrible. Seriously, dead horrible. Haha. I’m fine now, thanks for the concern guys. Took my bath and make up for the wedding. Mom was there, cooking. Meet my dearest boy, Rahul! I miss him tuckloads. He ain’t coming tomorrow due to his soccer. Shit ass! RAHUL BOGEY! Haha. Miss one tooth there. Lol. Hopefully Sirin would be able to attend the wedding tomorrow, I kind off miss her and Lulu too :D

People kept commenting I’m getting fatter but not one of my auntie. She doesn’t want me to get thin! Haha. Ok. So curious of my size. Should get more workout and diet already!! LOL.

Currently chatting with Piggy. He still wants me to go polyclinic -.-“ I’m recovering alright Pig.

Still choosing on what to wear tomorrow, gotta look pretty! :D Haha. Mommy wearing pink?

oh my..

2009-06-13T00:47:00.008+08:00

Fuck it!
Argh, is 12.51am and I can't get to sleep! I regret, seriously. I miss you already :( I'm starting to be sick now. Today's going to be draggy since mum is out to cook at Bukit Panjang, dad is out working, siblings out to _______ and if only Wan/Piggy (won't happen) calls and ask for a date out. Haish...

Fighting seems to be torturing for me.

On my bed, cuddling up in sweater, waiting for your call.
<3

assume more, NEVER.

2009-06-12T21:40:00.003+08:00

Today, I pathetically woke up early in the morning, took a bath, and woke up cousin, prepared to meet Piggy and his mum at Chinatown. It was 9.03 sharp. I was late, 3 minutes -.-“ Walk off to Sub Court and waited a few minutes for the lawyer. Pray hard nothing happens; the sentence was postponed again. 22nd June is the next called up. Damn! Do I have school on that day?

His mum is nice though :)

Well. Next, fight?

A: What are you doing?
B: Talking on the phone with C.
A: Late at night?! Go and sleep lah!
B: I was force to talk on the phone lah. So, yeah.

Here’s a conversation (example). Try to imagine that you’re C. B just happily accused you for forcing him/her to talk on the phone with you late at night when you’re sleepy and B is the one who wants to talk with you, or else... He/She’ll be down. A is a good friend of B any way and A doesn’t know C.

I was sadly being accused for forcing people to talk on the phone. Funny or what?! I’d rather go to bed than forcing you talking to me when the next day I have to wake up early. You happily said it was a joke? If it’s a joke, why would you tell her? Why would you even bother to tell her you’re being FORCE if it’s only a joke? Common Sense? Wait. Seeking attention huh?

For whatever reason that you have, STOP MAKING UP STORIES TO ATTRACT ATTENTION! I don’t lose anything if I never talk to you at night, so be gone! After this, you don’t have to torture yourself to make up stories about me forcing you and so on. Oh ya! Another thing before I completely forget, you promise and your sorry can’t do on me anymore. I’m sick and tired of you asking for forgiveness and don’t mean it at all, so better stop.

I just simply don’t TRUST most of the guys now (for whom I known).
Think for yourself. As a matured person. You want people to trust you but you seem not to keep your promises. Come on lar! People have brain to think. Once bitten twice shy. Get this idiom?

HUMANS! Freaking shit.

12 June 2009

2009-06-11T01:28:00.007+08:00

Currently chatting with Piggy and a new friend, Khaiddin? Hee :) Fee meet a new friend today! Yay me! Haha. Nothing much went on today. As per normal, Arrayan just seems to be a clown for one whole day. Who paid him? LOL. Didn’t went out today, but tomorrow and Friday I guess yes, two important day for me.

Where’s cousin? I miss her!
Siti Amirah :(

Wait! There's a note for my dearest Piggy.

For all the things you’ve done, I sincerely say that you’re a great person in my life. Never think that I would replace you for another person in life because that can erode our happiness. You’re such a great, best, superb, friend, enemy, and lover to me. On this 12th June, Ma and me (hopefully) will be there standing by you whenever you need us. But, there’s a limit to where we can reached. Let’s just hope for the best outcome alright. ILY Piggy!

With love, Fee.

Let's end it here then since I got nothing else in mind. Hee.
Good Night People.

migraine?

2009-06-09T23:16:00.002+08:00

Currently catching up with Nash, new father. Haha.
Sorry for not updating, too lazy to update :) Fuck it! Migraine came back while having a talk with Piggy just now. Since when I have this migraine thingy?! Gosh, damn it! This stupid illness can make me go crazy. Ah! Drop the subject. I really do not know what to type, brain does not want to think.

Well, I guess I owe my nephew an apology since I went out and not accompanying playing computer games.

Arayan: Makucu nak gi maner?
Me: Nak keluar kejap. Ok?
Arayan: Abeh sape nak jage Arayan?
Me: Nenek kan ader.
Arayan: Abeh nenek tido?

If only you’re not in this situation right now, I’ve already brought you along with me. I’m sorry once again. Meet up with Piggy in the afternoon and went to Frontier Library to study; Chemistry. I think I almost forget everything. Haha. Time to buck up, can’t waste this 1 month holiday.

Guess I stop here for today, really cannot stand the pain.
Good night readers.

g.t.f.h.o.o.h.

2009-06-04T23:09:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I have no mood to blog today.
Mum's getting on my nerve!

STOP BEING BIARS TO ME AND SIBLINGS!

addicted.

2009-06-02T23:30:00.003+08:00

Promised Aiman to upload the picture of the conversation. Haa! Here it is.

THANKS FOR THE FLOWERS GUYS!

To Aiman: I miss you too ok friend! Thanks for the ‘ugly’ flower. Haha.
To Piggy: Haha. Sorry can’t help you. She’s too stubborn to upload that picture. LOL.

I met a new friend today, Huiling. Yay me! LOL. Went off to Hwa Chong with Marzie and Huiling in the afternoon. Thought of looking around for 14th SLC members, but there were only a few, really really few. It was their first day for the 15th SLC badge. Looking at the enthusiasm, very low. Ha! Kay, whatever.

Around 4pm went off to Admiralty to meet Piggy. Had a tiring time with him. Walk non-stop just to look for a freaking sitting place, everywhere is occupied until one that is fucking far was empty. Next time, go and reserve a sit for me! Haha. Had a great time playing BINGO with Piggy :) Thanks dude.

Checked tagged. Firdaus replied. Awww! I miss him so much. I’m sorry, I can’t simple forget about the past, it’s so damn hard. I don’t know why. SORRY!!!

Currently chatting with Aiman and Piggy.
So yeah, updated. Haha.

geeeez

2009-05-30T23:29:00.003+08:00

Spent the whole day @ Admiralty. Swing here, swing there like nobody business. Thanks to the Pig who carry me and make me go round and round. Haaa! Reached home around 2200 hours. Washed up, had my dinner and had a little chat with Hafiz.

Thanks for the note there. I’m stoned. Still missing him I guess; memories can’t be erased that easily. Well, I’m sorry for what happen between you and Natasha, all the best though. Hmm. Nothing much to talk about today; nothing interesting. I’m tired.

Currently I’m otf wit Piggy, then I’m off to bed.
Good night readers!

Adly Haziq, HBD!

2009-05-27T23:23:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY PIGGY!

This dude here named, Adly, just turned seventeen. Hopefully you had fun just now. Sorry for not being able to make your day a memorable one; I'm seriously not good in planning a birthday suprise. Anyway, there's more people who did wished you a happy birthday ( not only the 2 sweet girls :D ), at least it makes you happy. I hope so?

Malay paper 1 just now was a disaster for me. I did a crappy composition. First time, only 1 piece of paper used for the section -.-" Clinic session was changed to feedback session for our class. Tomorrow will be another draggy day; will be in Rozana class, urgh! 2 more days for survival and 5 more days till the actual paper.

Nervous

I'm can't afford to go out anymore. Explained.

Now, I'm going to bed. Sleepy. TOO.
Good night!

Reena, HBD!

2009-05-26T22:59:00.012+08:00

Gotta wish my kembar a very HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!

Hunney, I'm totally sorry for being a late-wisher here. hope you had fun on this very sweet day. We'll definitely meet up and spend some time together soon. Have a great day hun!

Though I saw here just now, I totally forget that today is 26th. Gosh! So forgetful these days. Tomorrow will be another day. Being with dearest Monkey and Pig reeally cheer up my day, everyday. Thank You Guys; too great to be a good friend of mine. ILY.

Mother Tongue Intensive Prog. really weaken my brain to think of other subjects. I'm not learning anything from the feedback session. I did badly for the first day paper; it's really hard. I'm going to make it for today's paper. There's a clinic session tomorrow until 3pm and I'm going to meet dearest Pig after that. Huhu!

I met sweet ALY @ Bukit Batok. I miss her.

Another Long Day tomorrow. Good Night readers!

to MARZIE : haha. "aww soooo sweet" words will really kill me if you going to keep saying it. LOL. No matter what happen, you'll never be transparent girl! okay too much CRAP from Piggy already. He teaches me to talk nonsence. Scram him. I LOVE YOU ;)

sorry please?

2009-05-26T01:20:00.003+08:00

Its 1.20am now and my eyes are swollen.
I find myself failing each day. Falling and not getting up. I never forgive myself for what I’ve done these days. I don’t know why I’m changing to a bad person; in his eyes. I’m sorry. I do felt that too, not really bad, but totally different person.

I’m sorry I caused problems in your life. I’m sorry I made you cry. I’m sorry I worried you every night. I’m sorry I troubled you every morning. I’m sorry I gave you frustrations. I’m sorry I made you angry. I’m sorry for shouting at you. I’m sorry for scolding you. I’m sorry for being mad at you for a small thing. I’m sorry I cried in front of you. I’m sorry because I’m too sensitive. I’m sorry I hurt your feelings. I’m sorry if my words break your heart. I’m sorry if I lied to you in any way. I’m sorry for being a jerk. I’m sorry for being a criminal of your life. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done towards you that made you feels bad. I’M SORRY.

Things get worse each and every day. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like giving up being a partner in your life. You definitely deserve someone much better than me. Things aren’t going the way we wanted. These are the challenges waiting for us. Next, bigger and tougher. Hold on my hands tight if you want me to stay. Don’t let go, cause I will fall any time soon, and that’s I called THE END.

decision making

2009-05-24T22:19:00.005+08:00

Sorry for not been updating this few days. I’ve been busy and lazy to update. Been out to meet people; I’m still not concentrating on my work! Tomorrow starts the day for Mother Tongue intensive. Thumb, leg, fingers,body? going to be numb as sitting hours in the library, oh gosh! Have to persevere on; 1st June is Mother Tongue O level paper. I’m going to do my best and not having to retake in November.

Dilemma.

What’s really the meaning of true LOVE in the first place? I know I shouldn’t been talking about this shitty thing, but just want to make this post long. Ha! Crap. Talking about this, I’m still counting on my single days – 7 months and still counting. And soon it’s going to be a year :D

Yes, I have to admit looking at other couples; it just reminds me of the past. Still, I have to move on no matter what happened. It’s not easy but I have to be strong going through all the challenges. Should I or should I not continue? Hmm.

Okay, let’s drop the subject before its gone further and further and it’s going to be out of point. But I really want to know the meaning of true love. People keep saying sacrifice, sacrifice, but do they really sacrifice for the love ones? People are out of their mind if every single bits of things they going to sacrifice for it. Not talking about those marriages but this puppy love. Shits. Full of shits.

LOL.

Currently messaging with Sharaze. Huhu. I’m missed! :D

Went to meet A @ Admiralty just now. At last, everything is settled and no problem is still hanging in the air waiting to be solved. Now, it’s my turn to do my job – make a decision FEE.

I’m still not prepared for tomorrow day. I have to turn in soon due to the tiredness of walking the whole Admiralty just to find AN UNCLE THAT HAS A _____ FACE RIDING A BICYCLE SELLING ILLEGAL CIGARETTE. -.-“ Thanks to that A, my feet are cramped! urgh. I'm going to bite his head. Haha.

Good night readers.
Love, fee :)

still can't let go?

2009-05-21T21:01:00.001+08:00

Feeling so lethargic; idk why. Something just bothering me but idk what.

I MISS YOU more and more as days went by. WHY?

Md Firdaus B MJ

2009-05-20T22:19:00.005+08:00

I miss last time. Really.

I miss him.
I miss his smile.
I miss his cute face.
I miss his stupid jokes.

Oh gosh. I have to move on no matter what. He’ll be going soon (to somewhere far), and that time I’m going to miss him hell-like!

How can I forget you totally when ibu still talk about you?

what a day.

2009-05-17T22:48:00.003+08:00

FEE JATOH LAGI LAH!!

Went to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve with siblings.
Unfortunately, I trip brother's leg and fell. DARN!

I'm tired. I'm sleepy. Good Night.

Black Hole.

2009-05-17T00:31:00.004+08:00

Should I?
I’m confused. Well, I waited an hour for you, all alone and I didn’t complain much; but you? 15mins and you start complaining like shit. Feeling unfair here. So be it, yeah.

Had a walk from Lavender to Beach Rd. W brought his Converse shoe for $49.90. Bought 2 pairs of jeans that cost me $50. Then, meet his 3 friends at Marina Stairs – the Mat RepS. Their language use was like _______. I couldn’t stand it when they talked crap; primary school talking -.-“ cut it short. No use talking about ass-holes here.

Gave a reason to leave after they ate. Who wants to walk with them? Shitty. Took train to Tiong Bahru and went to Tiong Bahru Plaza. Bought 2 tickets to watch the STAR TREK. The show was freaking long; it nice though. At least my money was not wasted unlike watching the UNINVITED :o

Got to catch 2 more shows; Angle and Demons / Jangan Tegur.
(Wait long long)

Took cab home. Reach home 2345hrs. Mom and Dad kept quite and talked to me normally. I wonder why they didn’t scold me?

Chocolate Almond from Chewy Junior.

Strawberry _____ from Chewy Junior.

Oh ya! I met Batman! I miss him lerh.

Good night readers.

Having a date with siblings tomorrow morning at 7am at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve for a jog.

a _ _ _

2009-05-15T16:58:00.007+08:00

Jealousy? Envy?
I couldn’t understand what the need in you is.

Come on, be matured. If you want to be the best, you have to defeat the best and accept the fact that you aren’t the best yet. There are many people out there who are way better than you and now, only one person who won you and you can’t accept it? Then, forget about facing the rest of the challenges that you going to faced in life. I had enough of you reacting this way, if you want to continue, so be it. That’s your way, your life.

~~~~~~

YOU came back after 8days of 'holiday'. You lied, you disappoint me. And then, you came back with a story. It was nothing to be surprised about; all planned. At last, I won the challenge of changing you. Thank you GOD; you gave me the right path of turning him into a better person. Your wish now was mine before and please make it a reality for me since I can’t achieve it in the past.

Let's achieve what we always wanted in life. TOGETHER.

Tagged by Reena hun.

2009-05-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

1.Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
- Umm, forehead.

2. How did you feel when you wake up this morning?
- Sleepy :/

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- Umm, with family yesterday.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Nope.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
- Maybe?

6. Have you ever had a best friend who's the opposite sex?
- Yes, a lot.

7. Do you want someone dead?
- No, of course.

8. What does your last message says?
- “Pergi tanyer mama.. haha”

9. What are you thinking of right now?
- Adly Haziq :(

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- yes, definitely. HIM.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
- 3 am

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- No idea. Not mine.

13. Is someone on your mind?
- Yes.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- W.

15. Tag 10 random people to do this survey.
1) Marzie
2) Syikin
3) Natasha
4) Hafiz
5) Kid
6) D. Afiq
7) Faiz
8) Fazira
9) Kerina
10) Alyssa

16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
- She’s single.

17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
- Female.

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
- No, definitely not.

19. What is no. 1 studying about?
- Everything I study except Biology.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
- Most was just now; or not randomly.

21. Is no. 4 single?
- No. Happy attached with his small baby girl :D

22. Say something about no. 3.
- Love to talk to herself :0

23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
- I don’t think it’s a good choice.

24. Descibe no. 9.
- Pretty! Love her hair. She’s owesome!

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
- Idc, cause simply they won’t.

26. Do you like no. 8?
- Yes! A superb, wonderful girlfriend :D

I've done my part.
Now yours!

family gathering on special day

2009-05-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

Gave daddy a big surprise at home with cake dined in the middle of dining table with candles around – big sister’s idea. Daddy gave a shocked exp. Haha! Well, I never saw he was this happy on his birthday.

Though you are a hot temper dad, I still love you. You went through a lot with Mommy, fight and all because of me. Thank you. Appreciate your kindness for the 16 years you have brought me up ;)

15 candles; means nothing
with the birthday cake in the middle

chocolate

birthday daddy and wife :)

Everyone got ready after eating the marvellous cake; Royal Chocolate Cake. Thanks sis! 2 cars and a van drove through the PIE and stopped at Bedok – Spicez Cafe. We had our dinner cum supper there.

I ordered chicken wrap. Only had half and watermelon juice and I’m so fulled. Continue to eat bits of other’s food and when on bloated. Luckily I stopped before I vomited out everything. So yeah, was home at 11+pm.

mango milkshake

mummy

______ chicken; arab meal

western bbq chicken

rossa lasagne

chicken wrap

13 May 2009:

Happy 47th Birthday Daddy!

Happy 40th Birthday to Ibu Rutina!

14 May 2009:

Happy 19th Birthday Redzwan

Happy 12th Birthday Nur Aqidah

Should just keep a short and sweet post.

Good night readers, tomorrow will be another long day in school.

Happy Birthday Daddy

2009-05-13T15:20:00.004+08:00

Mommy,
Happy Belated Mothers Day, I love You.

Daddy,
Happy Birthday, may GOD bless you always. I love You.

Apology to all readers. Well, exams week just over for now. Too busy to update, too tired. I’ve done horrible in Social Studies. Still fine in English and Malay. I count on Prelim One, though some people like Bamboo said ‘It is only Prelim’. Whatever it is, I’m waiting for June holidays to over; I want to get over with the left over papers. So, frustrating.

Got to take a bath; weather is too hot.
Waiting for big sister to reach with daddy's birthday cake.

Prelim 1 started

2009-05-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

It’s almost 12 midnight and I’m still in the midst of memorising my Social Studies chapters/contents. It’s totally killing me.

Currently chatting with Afiq. His losing his senses soon. Haha. Idk why. Madness of people come when they are freaking bored and can’t get to sleep.

Okay, its either I stop work or continue later. But, what’s the use of continuing if nothing goes into my brain? Shall stop and continue in the morning. Hoping for the best tomorrow. Please.

All the best to my dearest 4E1 mates. Good luck people!
Fee :)

that's it, to start it again.

2009-05-04T00:00:00.004+08:00

Blog will be inactive for a few weeks till Prelim 1 is over. I’ve been slacking for the past 4 months, WASTED! I can’t accept the fact that I’ve been failing almost all the subjects. I can’t help it, the way I’m going is way, way too terrible.

I’ve chat with up Bamboo just now. Well, he woke me up. If he have faith and confidence in me, why not myself? There’s always one who is there for me when I’m in need – GOD – well, I know, wherever I am, whenever it will be, he’s always there.

I have to wake up! Nothing is too late if I start everything now. I have to start what is left behind; PRAYERS.

fee :)

Ohhh my.

2009-04-30T00:43:00.001+08:00

Well, everything is done. Settled.
CCA recognition day, Speech day and 14th Prefect Investiture has come to an end, at last. Secondary 4s have officially stepped down from CCA and Prefectorial board. I wish all the best to my juniors in both netball and the board. Well, like wad P said, now u guys has took a steeped forward and it’s your turn to take our position and stepped in our shoes. Feel what we felt before.

To the old Executive Committee:
Guys, thanks for everything. I was appointed to be a member in the board only in secondary 2. I make it to be an executive committee in secondary 3. Thanks for all the help, love and care you showered me with. Appreciated, of course!

To my DEAR Su Myat Noe Naing,
Thanks for the flower and the letter. Really touched my heart. You have made the board to a certain standard and that’s probably an achievement.

What I have to say now is to start on with my work. No point delaying and have big dream. I have to do my best in order to make a big dream a reality. Like I told K, I totally and really really need a motivation. Well, someone helped me out. Hope it does work.

Wait, before i forget HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURUL NATASHA!

the rose

with dearest MUMMY

bestfriends

lighting of candles; tradition

Good night readers.

Fee :)

2009-04-26T01:00:00.003+08:00

I’m officially stepped down from netball. Though, it’s a heavy heart to passed down the position to them thus, I still have to. Congrats to my two beloved juniors, JOY and AZLIN, for taking up the position as captain/vice-captain. Hope your leadership potential will shine through all the thick and thin challenges you will face along the way. So, all the best in leading those netballers who have the potential to bring the glory to the school next year.

Thanks to senior Aqid for the sweet :)

xoxo

Well, today was draggy, though it’s still fun yet frustrating. Was being woke up by mom early in the morning. Thanks to her I’m freaking tired right now. Early in the morning I had to go to the kopitiam to buy breakfast then went to aunt Ana’s house for some meeting thingy. I hate it when someone tell me what’s about me, what’s going to happen and what to do. I’m a teenager, I know what’s right and what’s wrong. People, like parents, they just won’t trust their children, esp; being an only daughter.

Dearest Sirin & Lulu was there. Miss them so.

xoxo

The thought of Marina Barrage was a fun place to slack at but I was wrong. Can’t really imagine how people could slack there. Well, I guess Esplanade, a stupid, ‘mats, minahs and old’ place, is still a better place to slack at. Nothing was interesting accept water. Ha. It didn’t took me an hour staying there until I was super bored and proceed to Far East Plaza. Had Bakso as my lunch cum dinner. Bought stuffs and went home.

Reached home at 10:35pm. Mum was _______. I wouldn’t want to be rude but she just simply _______. I’m your daughter and why can’t you trust me? I did went home didn’t I? Unless I’m like them, you can nagged all you want ok, idc. BUT I’M TOTALLY NOT!

Like people always said, life is full of ups and downs. Now I realized. Every day, each and every day, my life never escape from those feelings of hatred and envy, even fucked up. Well, I’m really tired to debate about all this, I shall have my rest now. Tomorrow will be another draggy day.

Good night readers!

adly haziq

2009-04-23T22:44:00.001+08:00

I miss you,

I miss your voice,

I miss your laughter,

I miss you cute smile,

I miss your hugs,

I miss you kisses,

I miss debating with you,

I miss the way you call me with names,

I miss chatting with you on the phone for hours,

I miss the ring on my phone and it appears your name,

I miss your morning calls,

I miss the way you look in my eyes,

I miss doing homework with you,

I miss staying up late with you,

I miss joking with you,

I miss hanging out with you,

I miss sitting beside you,

I miss scolding you,

I miss fighting with you,

I miss EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU.

welcome and good byes

2009-04-23T18:58:00.002+08:00

So yeah, I bet Reena's crumble pie turn out nice in the end :) Congrats girl!

Been wanting to eat cheesecake since yesterday. So I did ask her to email me the recipe. She messaged me with shocking news but I stayed calm and not show my feelings to others. So as it is in the bus with Kid. Tears began to gather when I received someone’s message. I hope its going to be done over with by tomorrow.

CCA recognition 2 is tomorrow. Have to be in school by 7am with the grey t-shirt. I’m going to cry or what? Haha, Camel asked to cry. Well, all the best to my juniors out there whose going to continue the journey persevering throughout the year. Hoping for the greatest outcome next year; let’s bring glory for the school.

Investiture rehearsal has been doing good. I almost lost my voice only after the first rehearsal. This coming Monday is the last rehearsal before the real thing start. Never to mention, I’m going to miss both Netball and Prefectorial Board. No matter what, it’s the best for me; I have to start concentrating in class and start doing revision. No more time to slack. That’s sec 3 time.

Fee :)

Reena's cooking

2009-04-19T19:37:00.001+08:00

Well, I'm at Reena Honey house.
While waiting for her to finish bathing, I'm going to do some blogging. Heh :) Still frustrated with someone. Going to bake STRAWBERRY CRUMBLE PIE. It's kinda fast till the end of the week. Urgh! I hate Mondays. Love Fridays. 5 more days till the end of my job as Vice-captain and let's welcome Joy Chan :)

Okay. She's done. Soon gonna start with some baking. Hoohoo!
Happy Muching People!

the moments of young time

2009-04-18T17:25:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was the worse netball training ever. Each and every member slack that include captain and vice-captain. Well, Radin and I decided to have a light training that day but instead we SLACK. That wasn’t supposed to be our idea. Coach flew off to Malaysia that afternoon that was why she couldn’t attend the training.

Till today, my body is still aching like shit. Today going be a toot day for me; not going out instead going finish up the left over assignments. I really have no time to do stupid stuffs these two weeks; really busy with

rehearsals.

Investiture Rehersal:
22 April 09 - 3.30pm
27 April 09 - 2.45pm

Decorations for Investiture:
17 April 09 - 12.45pm
28 April 09 - 2.00pm

Not only with rehearsals, remedial and CCA Recognition 2. Urgh! 1 more week left.
Woke up in the afternoon, was totally tired. Woke up and had a bath. Look around, nothing interesting to do. Took out all the photo albums and look through it. Well, it make me smile after looking at the photos when I was small.

4th Birthday

Pose 1
Pose 2
Pose 3
Baby Fee BULAT
"Kau nak ape?" haha
Pose 4 'wink'
:P

Fee w Mira. IMYsm!

I miss those young times when everyone look CUTE! Haha. I was referred as BOTAK BULAT when I was small && I love to pose around like nobody business. Now, every each of us have changed. Leading our own life. No matter how hurtful and unfair life will be; I still have to move on and continue with my own life :)

Fee :)

14 april

2009-04-15T05:14:00.000+08:00

MOMMY'S HOME!

I love her

I miss her

Geez... :D

movie - fast n furious 4

2009-04-11T15:46:00.002+08:00

Good morning readers! Was supposed to go for a Amaths remedial today but I was too lazy :) Heh. Woke up at 7am, as per normal, he woke me up. Irritating as he is always. Took a bath and prepare myself for school. Called Kid, She was sleeping! Haha, her voice sound so LOW. Lol.

Instead of putting my shoes on, I switch on my lappy and lie down on my comfort sofa. Sooner or later I went snorring. Haha. I was damn sleepy; Imagine yourself sleeping at three in the morning. Well, Fast and Furious 4 wasn't as interesting as Tokyo Drift & Too Fast Too Furious -.-" Next show is tomorrow. Haha. Anw, thanks for the wonderful treat :)

Got to go now.

Niece having a party @ Mac Donald at 5pm.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR SYAZWANI!

Fee :)

i miss mummy

2009-04-09T23:12:00.000+08:00

Well, I woke up 6.49am. Someone woke me up late, DARN HIM! I didn’t went to school, was still running a fever. Stayed at home, waited for brother to fetch me; went to doctor. Didn’t comment much but he said that my throat was red :) I knew it; been talking like an alien for the past few days. Ha.

Guess today will be a short post, I have to rest. BYE!
Have a good holiday people.

Fee :)

sick again.

2009-04-09T05:57:00.002+08:00

I want to congrats JYSB for achiving Bronze Award for SYF 2009. I can feel how sad they are when thery could probably get gold/sliver and it didnot turn out the way it is supposed to be. It’s ok though, like what Ms Nada said earlier on in Prefect’s meeting, take it as a learning experience; no regrets just do your best in the next two years. Good Effort JYSB!

Days have been down for me since mom flew off. Its totally a different feeling when you’re only staying with your dad at home. When your dad went off to work, you to school it feels the same but when you’re at home alone, dad probably will come back home later in the evening, without mom, it feels lonely. To someone, yes, I know how you feel now. When mom was around, she often accompany me through the night when I couldn’t go to sleep, not dad. He doesn’t do that nor care.

Its ok FEE, be strong. 7 more days left till I meet her again!
School was as per normal; I’m sick again. Time by time; I NEVER RECOVER! I wonder. How bad it can be Fee?! I was damn sleepy @ Biology class; since it was 2 periods, we took 1 period for theory and another period to ‘talk nonsence and sleep’.

1..2..3..4..5.. Rashidaa also sleeping.
Rashidaa, don’t look at me like that. I’m scared of female ghost

Mr Soh was damn scared of female ghost? Haha. Wasn’t even thought of talking crap like this. But we did. Hehe. Mother Tongue lesson; slack as per normal – we looked as though we weren’t taking O level this year. Hah! 4E1 malay students rock the house yeah. LOL.

Physics was as per normal; teaching Marzie what she had been missing was tough, she couldn’t udnerstand but slowly she could at last. Mr Teo released us early. Sec 3 having NAFA; Ms Tng was involve nevertheless there’s still netball training but netballers doesn’t know where to train. I asked for an excused with my ______ voice. She let me off that easy because of my voice :)

When home and sleep, since the day before I only slept one and half hour – debating with someone was the best! When I got up, I was having fever; high fever 38.5 degree celcius. Eat and I'm going to bed again.

Fee :)

mum gone to mecca

2009-04-05T04:43:00.000+08:00

I Miss Ibu!

Its been a day since I never meet her, I miss her a lot. She's away for good. I hope she's safe there. Mum, 11 more days. I'll pray hard for your thru and fro journey. I love you.

fee :)

brand new babey!

2009-03-29T10:56:00.001+08:00

It never came across my mind that daddy’s buying me a new laptop; only till yesterday when kakak called me and ajak me along to Funan Centre. I was wondering why. So, ayah fetch me in school at around 3pm; just finish having maths tuition with Mr Lim. Went home, waited for kakak to arrive and then to destination.

I did ask ibu why are we procceeding to Funan Centre? In return, she told me we’re buying laptop. I was smiling all the way though head was spinnning trying to choose which laptop to buy. We went on to different shops; different brands. I thought of buying Fujitsu M1010 but kakak recommend me Fujitsu L1010. It was kinda big and heavy so I rejected her. Brother-in-law rushed me to the last storyl; Challenger. It was not that cheap but the sevice there was superb!

A lasy approached us; Winnie. She’s nice, super nice. She recommended this laptop Lenovo Y330. The free items come only with a bag and upgrade to 4MGB. But brother-in-law bargain much till I get free mouse, free ear piece, free bag , free upgrade to 4MGB, free cooler fan for laptop. I had to pay only $69 dollars for Microsoft Office ; the actual price was $99 with all the free gifts. Thanks to brother for all the bargain; good bargain man!

While waiting for Winnie to upgrade my laptop, Siddique called. Free 2 tickets to Yuhua CC Dance Competition. The competition started at 7pm and we were supposed to meet at Jurong East Interchange at 6pm. Everyone were late. I met up with someone at Jurong East den headed to Yuhua CC’s bus stop and waited for my LATE dearest best friend. He was totally, superbly late! Though we enjoyed the presentation by all the dancers, the mc. The mc was the worse of all. Haha.

Sorry to say this, but the mc totally have to go to school to get his English dealed with. Haha. Pathetic. Nevermind about that. Me and someone headed home while Siddique went on to meet his brother. Thanks for the tickets yeah! :D

Once again, thanks daddy for the brand new lap top :D

Fee :)

lost post

2009-03-26T06:30:00.003+08:00

Keep on track...

Update on Raudah's Birthday Party @ Pasir Ris.

without me and Marzie

Koibelo jgak kdg2
Kin & Nat
the BOYS; i mean guys
clans JIWE

birthday girl blind folded

gelap gelita

the LADIES w/o MarTeo

Childhood times

Camel tk suruh tengok camera

PSP freaksus

FAIZ PANTAT S-O-L-I-D

pathetic -.-"

with birthday girl, Raudah

Apology again for the long lost track again.
Computer has been shutting down this few days; I have no idea why and I have been SICK for almost a week. Thank god it's recovering; cause I'm totally suffering. Mummy, its your turn. Get well soon dear mom.

Imagine having yourself to be sick for a week; missed 2 days of lessons when you're taking you O level this year! Frustrating much. Since I have been missing much, I need to recover as much as I could. Thanks to brain; it can stay on track and focus on A maths now. I'm super glad.

RED CAMP! Suddenly camp across my mind. Kid asked to write in blog. So I did, hopefully she herself does. Ngee Ann, Singapore, Temasek Polys came to our school to show off their poly's ability; something like that. I'm freaking intrested to go Ngee Ann Poly and I can't wait till O's end. Ha ha ha.

Getting busy now. Have a lot of stuffs to get done by tomorrow.
Got to go.

Fee :)

happy birthday alif

2009-03-15T21:31:00.002+08:00

Chalet Chalet Chalet.

Congrats to my beloved cuzzie, FAH, for making to Poly. All the best for your future sweet. So, yeap went to her chalet yesterday. Celebrated her younger brother's birthday, her aunt’s birthday, her parent's anniversary and her effort for making to poly. Repeated. Heh.

Happy Birthday To You,
Happy Birthday To You,
Happy Birthday To Aliff,
Happy Birthday To You.

Reached there around 7pm. It was crowded. The chalet was at Down Town East. Ayah pissed me off while eating. His really getting on my nerve already. Ibu’s idea was to leave the chalet at 8pm but since we reached there late, so the time was delayed. Someone asked me out to watch movie;Coming Soon ( NC 16 ). Asked Ibu’s permission and YES! I can go. The movie started at 11.25pm.

Thank You Ibu for letting me go. So nice of you. Hahaha.
Thanks you for that someone for the treat of the movie tickets.

Got to go for religious class now. Meeting ‘boyfriend’ at 5pm later. Boyfriend’s dad sending us off to Raudah’s chalet at Pasir Ris park. Meeting the rest at there. Andand I haven’t get anything for Raudah! Damn!

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY RAUDAH!

Fee :)

rusty blog, updated.

2009-03-14T07:44:00.003+08:00

Apology, blogger have been rusty for days.
Disappointment washed over me today. Seriously, I can’t be bothered today for the fact that FRIENDS are just like a _______. You know who you are. Need not mention names here. I don’t know what happen to me these days, or is it people around me? Is the world turning the opposite direction that made everyone change physically & mentally? That’s bad, totally uh.

Though, don’t let the disappointment take control for the whole week. That won’t be nice. X-country just ended. Waiting for the next event, Sports Day. Ha! I’m not taking part, basically damn lazy. Gained weight a lot, trying to lose weight. Fee, let’s go on a diet. Haha.

Well, before I forget and erase everything off my mind about today’s, let’s congrats all Rockians for the great effort. Well done ROCKIES! You guys did a great job; for some lah. At last, we beat Andes and clinched the championship for X-country 2009. :DDDDD I loike! Haha.

Appreciation; A big thank you to this people:
Rahim & Mr saz - for comforting me when tears run down my cheeks because of the MARZIE! Haha.
Dearest Kid who pulled me through the last 100m. ILY!

Stupid me. I didn’t saw Marzie when I ran pass through her after the minute she ran pass through me with Pei Ying and Florence. Damn! Nevermind, let’s not proceed on, only those who knew this, knew. Let it be a mystery to the others. Haha. I was really a fool. LOL.

~~~~~~~~~

Enough of X-crountry.
Someone gave me this message past few weeks. It is true?

Friendship isn’t how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not how you see but how you feel and not how you let go but how you hold on.

Well, after a few times reading through it, I found that it’s true. The quality is more important then the quantity. Quote this saying from a teacher. Quantity; the sum of friends you have doesn’t really count in life. It’s the quality; how they accept you, the way they treat you and the way they appreciate you sacrifices for them. In the past, I called almost all the people whom I were closed to, my bestfriends, but as time passed. They were gone. No where to be found till one day you bummed into them and they asked, do I know you? Tears will start to gathered in your eyes and then within a wink, tears started rolling down. How hurtful is that?

Secondary school life makes me think deeper. Who are my true friends? Indeed, not all. Not many. Countable. And maybe, one day I have to know them deeper inside. Friendship do not have an end. An end of a friendship will be the end of someone’s life or furthest, the end of world. Haish, how can MY life get any worst.

Maybe what Reena said is true. The time has not come yet. Wait. Don’t give up first. Keep striving and when the time comes, the only thing you will see is a grin on your face. Girl, thanks for the talk.

Guess, there goes the end of my speech. Thanks You.

Chey! haha. Ok, got to go now. Enough of typing.

fee :)

daddy, imy.

2009-03-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

I won't be updating this few days.

Apology to all readers.

fee :)

fee changed. Yes she did.

2009-03-02T02:00:00.000+08:00

Hello March! haha. Gosh! Time flies so fast, have to really start revising soon. FishHead! I need advice :)

Adli lost his handphone! Haha. Pity him. LOL. Ok, too random, very I think. So woke up at 7.10 in the morning. Take my time to prepare myself till it was 7.45am then I start going ‘kancong’, haha serve me right. Woke Ayah up. He have to sent me to Bukit Batok for the netball tournament thingy. It’s only one game -.-“ Damn pathetic. It was postponed all the way to this Sunday just for one game? Come on lar, stop wasting people’s time. Haha. Chill Fee! :D

Meet up the girls and Ms Tng at the place itself. After the match with Taman Jurong CC with a close score, URGH!, went to Mac Donalds with Radin and Ms Tng. Shiykin and Grace went off first; she had SYF rehersal later on while the rest went to Jurong East by cab. Had pancake for my breakfast; it’s been a super long time since I ate pancake. Mengidam tadi, haah. Sat there, chit chat, rotting at the air conditioner placed, cooling off the sweat, FEE VERY DISGUSTING; I know. Haha. Secondary one netballers have to be brainwashed, soon.

Took a bus home with Ms Tng; planned to stick around with Radin at somewhere since I intended not to go religious class, I was damn tired ok, but since she had a meeting with Hakim, decided to go home. Took 187 and again, chit chat along the way with Ms Tng. Really had a nice talk about my future, chey! Haha. It’s really hard to be a teacher indeed.

P.S. Mummy, my ambition is not becoming a teacher anymore. I quit! Haha.

28th February '09

Went to Ayah office and I found something interesting, stupid, cool :D Ibu and I was boring while waiting for Ayah to get his things done.

Next we went to King’s ice cream factory with mom and dad after A-maths class. Bought ice creams! $60 for Ibu is never enough. I forget to tick the Spinner ice cream and Ibu was like stunt why there’s not a lot of ice creams when we ticked a lot. Lol. Sorry ok.

Ayah didn’t talked much yesterday till we reached home; he was upset with Ibu since she didn’t let him go fishing. Every week also must go fishing? Families you put aside, Ayah think can? Wooo, Fee’s talking. Ok crap! Though, it’s true if you think back. Saturday supposingly a day that u spent time with your family/friends, but sad thing is no one asked me out. There was la one, but… heh. I don’t know, not really him I was waiting to ask me out. Sorry again.

Some stupid pictures I found cool yet stupid :D

Me, dad & mom played dry iced, CHILDISH! but fun ok!

Thai language in Ayah's office
Ibu found this funny. In thai and in english language :)
Colours spelled in Germany and English.

The GIANT pen bought in Malaysia years ago, still alive till today.

written.

These freaking week I’m totally not myself. Fish head should know. His been talking crap with me and then all of a sudden, at night, I started crying; he will be stunning then will comfort me. Thanks a lot, you’ve always been there for me man!

In the afternoon, went out with Reena; my crazy twin sister; to library. I don’t really understand people on earth. They always say she’s my sister since we look the same? When she is/is not, find out for yourself. Nevermind about that. So yeap. Here’s some pictures taken :D Enjoy! Hah.

click!

same? not?

clearer.

Guess that's all for now. I'm still tired and have to get all assignments done by tonight!

fee :)

thank you KIM

2009-02-27T05:50:00.001+08:00

Pulling myself together.
Thanks to Fish-head, throwing me with all the words and to let me think a while what's going on in my life.

Change is the only constant in life. Fee have to be strong in order to over come all the challenges in life without fail. Though, failure doesn't mean failing forever. You have to pick up your steps and go on no matter how bad when you fall. Remember Fee, no matter what, in YOUR life, there is no term as the word 'GIVE UP'.

where r you?

2009-02-25T18:21:00.003+08:00

Chat up with Fish-head about some nonsensical things. He laugh at the above photo.

Fee! Samer lah like you! But the moncong like my mouth (msn dp) ! haha

Ha! Verry Funny. Hapheez commented it was cool :) It feels sucks being at home nothing to do. Down with fever. Too many illness makes me sick! I'm kinda sleepy, woke up at 8AM, ate some bread then medicine. I totally need a rest now.

[edited] Rashidaa, Marteo, Kiddo; thanks for being such a sweetheart :) Thanks for asking about my condition. Not to worry, I'll be in school tomorrow. Hah, people are already missing me! Geez, I didn't know that, LOL.

to Kid: YOUR TEMPANG WILL BE IN SCHOOL TOMORROW! lol.

fee :)

sick!

2009-02-24T18:15:00.003+08:00

21st February '09

In the morning had A-maths in school with Mr Koh. I prefer a smaller class rather than big fat class. At least it decrease though. So, thanks Grace Anne for bringing the ball; not in use -.-“ Meet the girls at Boon Lay around 11:15 AM. That was a stupid training I ever had, MOST.

After the playing and snatching of balls, I rushed home instead of joining them for lunch. Rest, washed up and be gone to Yishun. From Yishun, waited Wan to get ready then we are off to Marina. Went to LJS, ate; though I was out of appetite. Was force, so I ate. Went to walk around when I’m moodless because of …… nvm. Let’s just jump to the last part where we ate ice cream at Swensens. Thanks for the treat Wan!

Some stupid pictures :

upside downMarzie wrote

only stupid people take this kind of photo which i dunoe why he took. riduwan :)
that choco sundae @ Swensens

22nd February '09

Had a match @ Bukit Batok. Reached Bukit Batok station and meet up with Lydia while waiting for the rest to reach. After everyone reached, we then proceed to find the place where the match was held. We took half an hour to search for the block, damn stupid ah. It was opposite sister's block.

Total of 11 teams was there for the match, if I'm not wrong. Most I could remember were ; Taman Jurong CC, Clamenti CC, Juying Sec, Dunearn Seniors/Juniors, Al Fala, Gastor... Before the match ended, the last two teams hadn't get a chance to have a match with each other, since it was raining. We waited for the rain to stop, unfortunately it didn't. I don't really understand why must the organizer took such a long time to make a decision to postpone the match, the only did that after Ms Tng told them that there is no use waiting till 4PM when the clouds are already gathering dark.

Called mom to hand over some money; I'm running out of cash! Meet mom at Mac Donalds and bought myself a burger. Reached home, took a bath and went to sleep.

23rd February '09

School was as per normal. Get my Chemistry and Malay results. Don't even bother to even talk about my combined science result. Malay was helping me. A2 :) Still have to bucked up on other subjects. Sun was all blocked by the dark cloud, it's going to rain again. My throat was damn painful, I can barely swallow my own saliva. OUCH! Had lunch in school with Rashidaa, Su and other 4E1 girls. Waited for the rain to stop, I went home with Su.

Had to get my malay composition done, but my head was really getting dizzy. Called Fish-head, asked him for help. Hey Fish-head, thanks for being such a caring friend! I didn't touch on the composition but went straight to bed. Took my temperature, 37.3° Ok, I'm not having fever.

Next day, when mom woke me up, I can barely stand and told mom I'm not going to school. 10AM went to clinic for check up. My temperature rised by 6°. I'm running a fever! Doc gave me two days mc and one week excuse from Physical Exercise.

Kid, sorry didn't inform you and you have to take the English quiz without the notes.

fee :)

freak out.

2009-02-22T06:34:00.000+08:00

Fee ain't posting these few days.

Life cocked up!
Never want to pick up those mistakes that was junked again!

exhausted

2009-02-18T07:30:00.000+08:00

thanks KID for the flower & the choc :)

you will receive yours next week okay? :D

First day of common test; English. Hah! Bio test, okay - I swear I didn't study, can make it a pass? NO! I don't think so. Though it wasn’t that easy nor that hard, I don’t think I can make it, not! Fat hope lah Fee. Okay shuddup, you have to look on the bright side. Tomorrow is Mathematics.

In the morning, look out for Mr Lian, needing to take Geography test since I was absent on the day class took the test, they say it was easy. Okay. Waited for him infront of staff room, he talked to his basketball boys and ignored me.

“Hold on a second”

That’s was he said.

Seconds became into minutes. Den he went in the staff room, wondering what’s taking him so long, he went out with his pencil case and ignore me AGAIN and went of to meeting. What the feeeee! (only a person know bout this :] ) So, I went off with Marzie. Planned to go library, and so we did with her sister, Yanee. It was fun though, talk and laugh about something stupid? Haha. Okay. So her sister drove me home. Thanks!

Next;

Congratulation to the soccer boys, they proceed on to the finals, I think. Though, whatever it is, all the best folks. Aha. I can’t think of anymore things to type unless school. Urgh! Big matter.

(one) Dropping Biology? Was advised NOT to.
(two) Dropping A-Maths? Was advised NOT to again.
(three) Taking back pure Sciences? I don’t know – better not or else I’ll be tearing stress-ness.

Final decision: stick to whatever I am taking now. Combined Science, Biology & A-mathematics. && I swear I need tutor for that A-maths subject. Planning to asked Mr Lim to tutor me and Kid. Hope it will work. Prelim 1 is in 2 months time? FREAK! So fast; time fly really like a thunder. Damn it.

~~~~~~~~~

I don't know what happened to that someone. He really seemed to change after 14th February. Changed negatively, I guess? Hoping all matter would be settles a.s.a.p. I can't take it any longer; still need to focus on studies. Friends come third. Though, I thank that someone for making the effort to tell me every little dirty secrets he have.

I'm in a ______ situation; can't described any further, too 'exhausted'.

fee:)

HVD!

2009-02-15T01:30:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines' Day to everyone :)

Recovered from my pathetic sickness; I didn't took my Geography & Biology test. So, yesterday, Kid said the fire alarm went on when they were walking to Bio class. Everyone were shouting like crazy since the Bio test was confirmed postpone. LOL.

I have to apologize to my team:

Sorry guys, didn't join you people for the match, but I did try my best to come to watch you all played. Bet, it was terrible huh? Sorry once again.

No valentine, no valentine's gift. Idc. Going out later to meet someone. Got to go; want to watch Idola Cilik! :)

fee :)

brb.

2009-02-13T04:17:00.000+08:00

As usual; reached home nearly 1900hrs because of the house practice. Why must sec4 still attend? Urgh! Forget it. Tomorrow is Total Defence Day and it is so lame. It’s been 3 weeks we (sec2,4) didn’t get to run mass run, so ______. Today was a long day, yeap it is. I didn’t attend Prefect’s first ‘bonding time’ with Ms Nada, was busy with the house prac. and lazy-ness tends to occur. Pathetic, I know.

Tomorrow is another long day: TDD, 2 class test – Goegraphy and Biology – Netball tournament. Last! Yeah at last. Win or lose, idc. Cannot wait till 29th April, the day will really be a relieve day by then. STEPPING DOWN, yay Fee! All the best to my juniors who’s taking over netball or prefectorial board.

Quick review of this week:
9th January `09 : Soccer; JYSS vs YCSS and the score was 11:0
Keep it up boys, national awaits you. Shiykin’s plan did work out. LOL

10th January `09 : Netball; match against USS.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS! Went for a dinner with family @ Adam road. Food there are awful ok. Cousin saw this group of punkers, sangat lah lembut, selera makan pun hilang.

11th January `09 : Had a Biology Practical – data logger. Was fun hearing peoples’ heartbeat. Especially mine when Kid told me my heartbeat got something wrong with it since she cannot read the ECG graph clearly; tooooooot you!

fee :)

blank

2009-02-12T07:05:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the dead blog.
I'll update it soon, was too busy doing schoolwork this week.

fee :)

superhero

2009-02-04T05:43:00.001+08:00

Finally I bought my Additional Maths assessment book at Brass Basah Shopping Center with someone; yay for Mr Hafiz. Lol. Thanks for accompanying me, no sweat. So, met someone at Cityhall Station; he was late.

Messaged him: Your first impression is totally bad.

He wore slack and there he complained much. Well I started off the conversation by asking what is his height; well-answered – don’t know. For a guy who age is 19 years old to be around my height, HE’S SHORT. We went to shop for my stuffs and window shopping for guitars. Next was no where.

Him: Nak gi maner?
Me: Entah? Where you want to go?
Him: No idea. You?
Me: Don’t ask me. I’m done with my stuffs. Now your turn.
Him: Abeh Nak tanyer saper?
Me: Diri sendiri lah. Haha.
Him: Okay! Let’s go cheers, nak beli air.
Me: Okay go.

Both had no idea where to go next. So I decided for us just to walk till we reached a place; that is I don’t know where. Haha. Walk and walk and walk, rokok pun jalan. Our footsteps lead us to Memorial Tower, kenangan la oi! Sat there with someone and share some stories of ours. A sportsman approach us.

Sportman: Do you have a watch?
Me: Yes, y?
Sportman: Can you help to time how many minutes I run a round? Cause I do not have watch to time myself.
Me: Sure.

Him: Buta agaknya. Da tentu-tentu dua-dua pakai jam kan.
Me: Bastard sey.

Next few minutes he arrived and I shouted 4 Minutes and 30 Seconds. He said Thank you and went off for a run again. Someone wants to ____, we went to Esplanade for minutes, kerja dia spot couples gado tapi paisey. Get back to the same old place and chatted all along till it was 1940hrs.

I told him to walk to MRT station, since it’s getting late. He sent me to Lakeside; he lives all the way to Khatib. Waited for him to board the next train. Sorry ehk, Fee tolak cabaran you. Next time, next time. He proceeded back home to Khatib and meet his friend there.

monday 020209 - Juying soccer boys beated Assumption Englishcongrats to all boys!
Hein; scored 3 goals
Khadri; scored 2 goals.
Shamil; scored 1 goal.

Khadri's quote: 3,2,1 goal and TIME UP!

mood less

2009-02-01T02:42:00.000+08:00

30th January 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIMMY!

may you be taller and have longer hands soon :)

Netball training seems to get tougher and tougher. I feel like cutting off my feet, but NEVER. Radin was a _____. She make faces with coach since she was so frustrated. So did I. She was called out by coach after training, she talked with her about the training. haha. WADEVER! Reached home, I dozzed off. I'm freaking tired with all the trainings and sprintings.

31st January 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BATMAN!

may all your wish come true.

Just finished tuition with Mr Hafiz. Had a fight with someone. Frustrating enough. Getting ready for kenduri later at 8pm. Still sick; I have no idea what I'm writing.

Will update when I recover. F!

fee :)

turned 16 now

2009-01-27T08:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND!

nanti ibu datang kay? CRAP!

to be with you is the best

2009-01-27T07:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !

Wishing all my Chinese friends a very Happy New Year. May the day today be a perfect one for them & may good luck enter their life :D

These two days were a blast one for me. Maybe having a family gathering once a week maybe a good bonding? Basically had a family gathering these days; not really call a gathering, alah bersama-samaan lah kiter haha.

Went to East Coast in the afternoon; with aunties, uncles, cousins along. We did nothing much, just lepak there. At first, I was mad at ayah for not coming with us. He came back home from fishing early in the morning and went to sleep till late afternoon. Fish is much more important than family is it? Like wtfish ah! Decided to follow aunty to ECP since ibu&ayah didn’t want to catch up with us. Forget about him. Let’s just go. Ex Boyfy was there, thought of meeting him, but was too late. When I got there, he's going home.

I kept looking at the sky when it turned dark each second. Gerhana matahari maner?! Ibu said she saw it, I didn’t. urggh! Da get ready cermin mata semuer beh tak nampak? Best ah kan! Hours past, ibu&ayah arrived with bike; happy giler uhs!

Sad thing was, no picture was took! Heh. Lazy.

25th January 2009

Superb tiring day yet it was superb fun!

First ibu&ayah brought me and counsins to Batu 20; meet aunty&uncle over there. Carik kupang till it was late evening and we proceed back home. Aunty thought of going Changi Village for dinner but everyone was already tired and itchy, esp on the leg. So, we decided to proceed back home first.

At 9pm, everyone meet at Changi Village for dinner. So yeap, nothing much. Dinner was good but not good :D Was a blast day still.

Snapsnap!

batu 20

changi village
along eat&pout?
nasi ayam black pepper

thumbs up?

mom&dad

lovely sis :)

Happiness is where we find it, but rarely where we seek it - J. Petit Senn

fee :)

head up high

2009-01-23T05:22:00.002+08:00

Teamwork is the ability to work together toward a common vision. The ability to direct individual accomplishments toward organizational objectives. It is the fuel that allows common people to attain uncommon results.

Just like the ball alone, it stands on itself. Well, I guess a team player shall not be like that. Though, the days past with sadness, tomorrow is a new day to look forward for. Just give your best shot for tomorrow girls, ALL THE BEST!

Training was frustrating just now. She hold us till 1820hrs! Re-do every step that isn’t good. Get scolds & nags at a lot of time; this just seems to go on till the last day of the match I could give a guess. Will just continue to update more tomorrow or the day after.

"Coming together is a beginning. Keeping together is progress.Working together is success" Henry Ford.

fee :)

reunite

2009-01-19T17:03:00.001+08:00

7th January 2009
Well, went out with beloved, Sirin & Reena.
Okay, wait wait. Firstly, let me thank the one who gave me the special shoe :D thank you sayang, appreciate it a lot. Never thought u will buy me one.

We went out to have my belated belated dinner. I eat chicken fried rice; hate getting scolding when I wanna eat the popiah, I can’t. SHE knows why. Nevermind about that. Here are the snapshots we took.

19th January 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 17th QUARESHAH!
Hope your day will be blessed with a blast.

Nothing happening today in school. Netball training was cancelled. It is now schedule on Wednesday & Friday; pathetically our tournament fell on Thursday, that was like ‘ urgh! ‘

Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.

fee :)

too much

2009-01-15T12:36:00.000+08:00

7-9 January 2009
Well, secondary one team building camp was finally over. SUCCESS! It was successful though many of us lost our voice; I don’t mind that actually. That was what I always wanted. Lol. Seconday ones look up upon us, secondary four students, now. Boastful? No! Never. I made new friends with some secondary ones, especially my group members – Khai & Ridzwan, the most closest to me. Memories left in heart and mind. Congrats to all 4E1’s students for the success, our hard work paid off & everyone had stepped out of our comfort zone. Love you people!

Campfire times,

10-11 January 2009
Advance birthday party @ east coast chalet. Thanks Aqilah, Khadri, Shiykin, Faiz, Shamil, Dee, Alyssa, Kerina, Rully, Karel, Gico, Haikel, Siddique, Hafiz Bear for coming. Without you guys, my day won’t be as much fun. Nontheless, without my supportive beloved family, the party wouldn’t be a great ones. Thank you very much once again. Those memories I will just kept to myself.

Here are the pictures I took: *ignore fifth picture, playing a fool*

12 January 2009

Radin: Everyone gather, I got very very important announcement to make. Everyone get the information right just now?
Me: What information? I don't know any information.

Happy Birthday To You,

Happy Birthday To Syafiqah,

Happy Birthday To You.

Firstly, I have to thank everyone who wishes me on my very Birthday; oi, sweet 16 finally sey.

To my Netball Girls, thanks for the birthday song. Appreciated && to my captain, your secret information really work out well, I was fooled? :D

Although my special day falls on Monday; that sucks actually; it was a wonderful day for me to be with my friends :D Sad thing came around when I didn't get to celebrate it with him, guess he forget the day too. Earthlings' make my day anyway. I was like a mad person in school saying thank you each minute; people come to me saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY, mulut non stop cakap terima kasih.

Hoping that my wish will come true at the end of the year.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAZIDAYU TOO!

13-14 Januray 2009

Date with Fatimah Rocker & Mum Kid was canceled due to some CCA thingy in school. It is now plan on Saturday; going Bugis I guess. Friday there's a dinner date with someone-s special. Basically, there's nothing to talk about for these two days.

At last, today, I can concentrate on my Mathematics. Getting tuition with cousin for Additional Mathematics. Today get a freaking shocking new; NETBALL TOURNAMENT STARTS ON FRIDAY @ 4.15pm! Ass. I'm certainly not ready for that. How? Think, think, think Fee. I'm tired, continue tomorrow. Have to catch up with some works.

Always helped me focus on the future and push the regrets of the past behind.

fee :)

2009-01-06T16:03:00.000+08:00

Fee is off for camp 7-9 January 2009.

Will update after camp :)

Fee is busy currently, thanks.

Brand New Life

2009-01-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR EVERYONE ON EARTH!
Okay, sorry for the late update, was busy with some stuffs. School's reopen; was happy to see all my friends with a smile put on the face on the first day of school. Okay wait, let me talk about countdown party @ Marina which didn't workout that well, niwae, still I enjoyed since he was there :D

31.12.08/01.01.09
Supposingly, there shouldn’t be any plan for countdown until cousins asked to come & tag along with them to Marina. I wonder who will be going, well 3 couples? Not really say couples but she put it that way. I asked him along since there’s no one to accompany me, thanks dearest!

As thought, Marina would be packed of semut (ants) – MeiMei quote – yes indeed. We were walking through a crowded area where people just kept pushing one another. Cousin paitao; she say at 1am we going to leave Marina, bath foam @ Boon Lay; itu semua hanya rekaan semata-mata hendak keluar rumah, haha. Speaking lah pulak! Since she paitao with dad too, they went for a drink @ Fort Canning, offering him but he rejected; I was there. I know he know they know. First we went to Keramat Shah Iskandar; scary much and everyone ran. Haha. Next was Fort Canning up hill? Itu aper aku panggil, tk tau namer tempat tu lah.

Drink drink drink; drunk? NO. Watch a portable Tv. Haha. Leave that place at 2.30am and headed towards busstop which have Night Rider bus for us to head home. 3.30am we took the bus and he was left alone waiting for the bus; mintak maaf banyak-banyak yer. There was an accident occur that made me cry. GOSH! First day of 2009 & I cried; he comfort me, once again thank you very much.

Him: Lain kali u nak kuar ngan dorang tak mu ajak I okay.
Me: Kenape? You tk mo buat I mcm ni uhs. I nga pening ni.
Him: Bukan pasal You lah…

Okay, there’s no need for me to continue the conversation. I slept in the bus since it was a long journey & luckily there was ONE empty sit ‘reserved’ for me. LOL. I reached home at 5am, mom was sitting at the sofa starring at me; I went straight to bed, was damn tired! The next morning I woke up at 5pm. Haha.

02.01.09
First day of school; nothing much. 2hrs of hot butt in the hall listening to Principal, Head of Discipline talking non-stop about how school should be start off with & so on. Students are getting restless each hour and we end up having recess at 10.30am with sec3s &5s students.

11am sharp; in classroom. Settle admins stuffs with Ms Wong (co-form teacher) since Ms Nurul is away for a short break with her pregnancy, Ms Wong will take over mean while. Me & Kid felt something in the class was different. The number of students are just decreasing; fun people won't be in class anymore. Mr Teo, head of level, went in to settle sec1 camp admin stuffs with the class. Tomorrow there's dry run early in the morning for EVERYTHING.

countdown: sec1 camp - 5 more days
happy birthday fee - 10 more days

Pretend not to know, but you know everything. So, stop pretending, cause nothing will change.

fee :)

thank you

2008-12-31T18:25:00.000+08:00

Firstly, got to thank this Kontot here. Though, much to be blogged. Yesterday & today were much fun.

to Kimmy,
hey, thank you so much for spending yur precious time accompanying to watch movie. Hope you really had a fun day out with me, I did with you. Anw, have a good rest, I know you're tired. Tangan Iqah tetap panjang daripada tangan Kimmy Okay?

29.12.08
Went to Bedok, meet him for the last time before 2008 ends. He change his phone to SAMSUNG nasib ader Bluetooth, leh jugak aku send lagu favourite aku. We did nothing much, we didn’t lepak like we use to, just taking photo syiok sendiri jugak kadang-kadang.

step mat rep jer

senyum stop it sak

his arm?

6 pax tk menjadi? CACAT

love wearing his cap :)

30.12.08

Board meeting again in the morning with Ms Nada around. It starts at 9 and ends at about 11.30am When on to call Kimmy who still haven’t took a bath yet -.-“ told him everything about the outing today then he went to take a bath. Rush home & decide on what to wear. Waited for his call.

Kimmy: Iqah da siap belom?
Me: Belom lah, Iqah tunggu Kimmy call. Kimmy cakap da bes mandi Kimmy nk call. -.-“
Kimmy: Kay kae. Iqah gi siap, then call Kimmy kae. Kimmy da kat luar nie.
Me: Ah okay.

I rush to fit on something. Outfit that I wear still doesn’t fit my style. Last minute, decide on white shorts and long sleeve shirt. It was hot though, then it when cold. Nevermind. I was abit late, he reached Jurong East first. He waited at last cabin. All white, dats me. Yeah right Kimmy, blue + white + black = all white? Colour blind ker cik abang oiii. One thing that really surprise me, HE IS SHORT! Haha, sorry ehk Iqah kutuk, but is the fact kan? Just accept the fact ok. All the way from Jurong East to Outram we have a conversation about “how’s life going on” – it was fun chatting with him, at least he talks :)

When to buy movie tickets when we fight for the time, both can’t decide on the time – 1405 or 1630? Since 1405 had passed while lining up; it was a long queue at Vivo City’s cinema; Kimmy decide on 1630. Lol. People will find it stupid when we take time to decide things, cause both will say sembarang, tak kisah. After done with the tickets thingy, we went for lunch @ LJS. This I decide cause he decide on the time of the movie. That’s stupid, I know , haha. While eating we had a chat about our own life, in the past? Memories. Not really lah, still about our own life. Next, we went walking around till its 1620 and we proceed back to the cinema. It was damn cold although I’m wearing long sleeve.

We watch YES MAN; funny, damn funny. After the movie we went to meet his cousin; I forget the name but it starts with the letter F I guess. She wanted to buy slippers but it is not up to her style? Kimmy was fed up. Die panggil die anjing, die panggil die babi. What the hell? We went to LJS again, his cousin treat him a meal, while I sat there, reading my unfinished book . Lol.

Me: Kimmy makan lagi?
Kimmy: Lapar ah. Iqah nak?
Me: Tak nak ah. Thanks.
Kimmy: Betol? Confrim tak nak?
Me: yer tk nk *grin*

They went for a smoke outside sembunyi jugak takot kene tangkap; brani buat brani tanggung ah kan? Kimmy keje selit menyelit. Haha. Finally, we took train at Habourfront; have a sick stomach on the way home. Kimmy and F, stopped at Jurong East and left me alone in the train. Reached home at 10pm.

tdo or jiwang? It was a candid shot :)

He was laughing cause malu nk take pic, lol

" i love the cloud, lawa sey" his quote
his drink

Sometimes things just got better when you have someone you love with you.

fee :)

precious as it is, won't hold long

2008-12-28T16:49:00.000+08:00

Haikel Firdaus Salleh
Dudes from 3T1 ’08. Joker – I miss them a lot, since it has been 2 months that school close. Frankly, most missed is the middle man there. You know I know lah ehk Thought of asking him along for gathering, at least I could meet him. So, I did message him just now.

Fee: you free on the 31st?
Fir: tk tau plak.. tk der plan.. y?
Fee: maybe there will be clan gathering.
Fir: so whos gg?
Fee: for the time being not quite sure. Btw, I’ve receive your comment, looking forward to see your new looks handsome!
Fir: :] kalau jady text fir kae..
Fee: sure. Tkcr. Imy! Haha :)
Fir: miss you too.. :-*
Fee: awww, so sweet. Kirim salam ibu kae? Thanks!
Fir: okae.. kirim salam family.. pape text or kol fir..
Fee: sure do! Tkcr.

Sangat sweet lah kan.. After messaging him, look through contacts for other names – Ayim & Khadri. Only one replied. So probably the gathering will be at Marina, I guess? Yet to be confirmed. Haha :) Last day of 2008, need to spend time together, true?

Today, was totally bored at home. I wake up late, around 2pm. Yesterday, I waited till 5.30am for him to reply, yet he went to bed :( tak per, ku dah biase kene gini, selalu. Terima kasih. Asked Marissa to Jurong Point, reason not going came out. Instead going alone, asked Reena along.

Walk around that crowded place for hours, Reena did bought something, not me. Not even books that I’m supposed to buy. OTS – out of stock. Pathetic. Have to go back to school tomorrow then! Few hours, I was pissed off by him, rejecting my phone calls – sleeping – yelah besarkan taik mata jer..

FEE! SYAFIQAH!
Someone shouted my name in the middle of the crowd. Turned back, Shukor! I ran to him and hug him. Haha. I know I’m freaking mad. All the way I hugged him till we reached interchange, had to let him go cause we’re taking different bus. Lol :D So, finally the story of today come to an end. Fee bebual merepek, boring kan.. Layankn jer lah ok?

The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned.

fee :)

bad hopes

2008-12-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

Today, friends went Labrador Park for some dry-dry run for Mini Amazing Race; sec one camp. Still, had some stuffs to be done. Life hadn’t been pretty good these days, idk why; maybe for some reason that hadn’t been shown.

Reena’s thought of having sleepover at my house today. It was canceled due to some reason; computer? Reena, I do have a comp at home too -.-“

Reached home around 4.30pm and ibu was preparing to go someone’s wedding; not sure who & just stick around. Saw old kindergarten mate, Ashraf, pathetic that I didn’t know he’s my cousin till today. Haha! Belonyer kau fee :)

Ashraf stared at me while I was walking beside ibu, appearently I stared at him back. I was shocked saw him sitting there; its like – what is he doing here? We’re cousin? – I asked ibu and it was a total shock when she say YES. Went off to meet his mom and parents had some conversation among themselves; kecoh betol. Orang tua what you expect?

Leaving the conversation to an end, ibu reminded ayah to go IMM, I’m needing the ink for my printer. My left foot was already biting me; the heels was troublesome. I bought a shirt from there. Ibu was envy; idk why. Why can’t I spent abit when she can spend all the money she want? Don’t bother.

After placing the magenta in the position, yellow ink was lacking. What the hell? I wasn’t even printing out anything; I haven’t even use the printer and yellow ink had to be replace. This was annoying, much! If I were to tell ibu, she’ll probably open a big mouth to it. I’ll replace it myself tomorrow.

I think I’m done here. Im tired.
Good night.

You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve you love and effection -

fee :)

2008-12-27T08:11:00.000+08:00

Bulletins -

Who are you?
` Nur Syafiqah

Who is your best friend?
` Idk

How many close friends do you have?
` A lot I think

Who do you value most?
` Family of course!

Who do you want to be with right now?
` Him

Who is the person you hate most?
` Idk – no one in mind right now

Whose name is randomly appearing in your head?
` Zack

Who are you expecting today?
` Kimmy – to at least reply my lessage

Who was the last person you were introduced to?
` Can barely remember

EMOTIONS IN YOUR LIFE,
How are you feeling?
` Down :(

Do you have your ups and downs moments?
` Who doesn’t?

Which one tends to get to you more often?
` Down if not because of him.

Are you hot-tempered?
` Yes, but depends.

Do you keep your emotions to yourself?
` sometimes

THINGS IN YOUR LIFE ,
What is your favorite color?
` Black Green White Brown Orange Red

What is your most prized possession?
` Love?

What is the object that you hate most?
` Computer; when it laggs

What kind of fashion statement do you follow?
` Simple will do.

What is your favorite animal?
` Kittens; mum doesn’t allow to have one

What is your least favorite animal?
` Cockroaches; insects!

What are you most afraid of?
` God; ALLAH

MEDIA IN YOUR LIFE,
Do you watch the news?
` Sometimes; interesting features only

Do you watch cartoons? If yes, what?
` Yes; Tom&Jerry Spongebob ….

How many email adresses do/did you have?
` one is enough for me

How many pen pals do you have?
` ?! -

How many messages are in your current email inbox?
` 23 message

Do you follow fashion trends?
` Not totally into it.

SCHOOL IN YOUR LIFE,
What is your favorite subject?
` Malay & Social Studies

What is your least favorite subject?
` Maths & pure Sciences

Do you finish all your homework in time?
` No. Don’t bother.

Are you the kind of person who comes late to class?
` Because of Prefects, yes. Or else no.

Have you ever skipped class?
` No!

Do you chew gums or eat candies in the middle of a lesson?
` When there’s no teacher :)

ACTIVITIES IN YOUR LIFE,
What are you doing?
` Doing this bulletin, surfing net & chatting

What are you supposed to be doing?
` Finish up my homeworks

What are you best in doing?
` Talking lame shit things, gossips. Haha

What kind of extracurricular activities do you have?
` Netball, which I’ll be stepping down soon

What is your goal in life?
` To always achieve better things in life & be stronger each day to access life :)

imy- dunker head

2008-12-27T05:27:00.000+08:00

[edited]

Md Hafiz bin Abdoh. Md Shukor bin Soewito.
Okay, I miss them damn many many! Say what? They’re all leaving next year. Malay class will never be fun anymore. By then, we have to concentrate on our big BIG examanations; O lvl. When 2009 starts, everything will be brand new, I guess. What past is past, starting a bright future ahead is another goal :)

There’s a meeting for whole prefectorial board early in the morning; Mr Singh wants to have a talk; but there isn’t -.-“ Ms Nada is the Head-Mistress next year; all the best to Atifah and family, haha. Clan will be stepping down soon; may/july. A.S.A.P. no worries. Had a talk with Anderson about the investiture, Atifah looks so down; awww; though she have no idea what we’re talking about. Prefectorial Board have to be improvise; sooo much.

Well, enough of the board meetings and so on. Getting back to my dearest friends; I met Shukor in school just now. He hugged me tight, & so did I. people were saying they missed each other. Thought of clan gathering this 31st Dec, but guess probably many won’t make it. So wait till school reopens. Black Zack was there too; normal joker. Irritates Anderson; nothing better to do -.-“

I’m so bored now, fighting with him will always occur. I’m tired of giving in, I don’t mind if he reads this. Well, we have to face the fact in order to proceed on with life. There’s so many rocky pavements & I just have to go on without turning back or rain will pour down. Ha – I talk crap. Only me understand -.-“
Well, Reena beep me for a jog.

We start off nearby, have a 2 round around my estate. Kinda tires since I've not been running quite long, but it's ok. Her speed & mine was well goes. Intended to end the jog before 7.30pm but we had some talk under my block and it ends around 9pm? what she told in her blog, she was preety AMAZED by a question asked by me:

Why you never consider you own advice? "

& then what happen is she just smiled at me like an innocent child. Somethings are meant to be shared just to ease yourself but sometimes, we can't just let it out by words, maybe expression? Anything that goes right.

You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. --Barbara DeAngelis

fee :)

Holidays Ending

2008-12-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all.
Guess holidays are ending soon. This isn’t a good time to remind me of tons of homework in my file. That make up to my headache. Apologies to Shiykin aku tahu blog aku da tk bernyawa I’ll make it up to you for what I could.

Actually there’s a lot of stories to share about in life since I last blog was in September, I guess. That’s months! So yeah, I bet last outing was with dearest buddy, yesterday. Was all day at home when she asked me out to Jurong Point. She wanted to buy Christmas gift and at last she bought a passport holder @ Precious Thoughts. That’s pathetic -.-“

Pretty presents; clash into old mate, Zon. The hottest chinese soccer guy in Corporation Primary I guess. He’s as much taller now than he should be. I remembered when we’re in primary school, he used to be around my shoulder, could imagine that short. & I guess now, I’m the one sitting at his shoulder. Haha. No comments. Old mate is old mate; I did ask for his number – wonder if clans of primary schools could gather back together, that should be great!

So yeah back to the shopping thingy, we went across over to JP2 and guess what? Reena just pulled me back; she saw S. Well, who wants to meet him. We walk downwards towards the escalator. There was these incident which couldn’t stop me from laughing again and again.

Fee: Reena turun bawah ah. Kater nk gi makan dulu.
Ree: Okay. Nak gi bawah ah ni.
*stunt*
Fee: huh?! Gi bawah tau.
Ree: Ya Okay. Tau. *look up to the escalator*
Ehk stop! Ni pergi atas.
Fee: Haha! I wanted to stop you but you talk so confidently. So I just kept quiet and
stunt at you. Haha!

I couldn’t stop laughing from that onwards. Escalator, Reena. Reena, escalator. Haha, what a day! Went walking with her, had some friendship moment till when we saw Ms Zuli with this little cute kid.

Ree: Cikgu! Anak ehk?! *she just shout from the opposite side*
MZ: no no no. Haha. I got to go. Bye!

While, I was thinking back then, when is she going to be married and have kids. Lol. She is still the best malay teacher ever, since I know her. Idk how but still. Idc. So, yeah. Day after day, my life gets tougher, I’m changing like people said. “Got to fit to environment. “

" There's no such thing as perfection. But, in striving for perfection, we can achieve excellence"
- Vince Lombardi

fee :)

shopping spree :D

2008-09-27T15:27:00.000+08:00

New handphone; LG - KS20. Thanks ibu and ayah.

Shopping with you guys are the best; although somethine bad happen in the middle. Today was supposed to be the day when I bought my shore for HR. My cerewetness just seems to drag till 11pm. Ayah drove from a place to another and I just didn’t seems to find the right shoe.

First we went to Anchor Shopping Centre. There’s sale there; Charles & Keith. Me and ibu bought begs there; quite a number of nice shoes but idk; I just can’t find the perfect one. Went down to the basement floor. Billabong Outlet; went to bought cap there. Few caps were being recognize as nice; it didn’t fit my head; head too small -.-“ Ibu bought 2 bottles of soya bean.

Ibu: Give me 2 bottles of soya bean.
Salesgirl: 2 bottles ar? War or cold?
Me: Warm!
*pay and walk away*
Ayah: War! War! War!
*me and ibu laugh*

What a China! Haha. Don’t even know to pronounce warm properly. Haha. Mumy wanted to find carpet for living room but there was no stock; at Ikea.. And we headed to Jurong Point to find my shoe. At last; dady bought me this phone :DDDD Thanks once again. Went home to breakfast before going out again.

After breaking fast, we went to Jurong Point again; find shoe at Bata; I thought Bata was the last shop to go. Ayah open mouth; gi geylang jer lah carik! So we did and at last I got my shoe; simple enough to wear for a week of raya -.-“

And that’s a day of shopping. Tired! Getiing back to lala-land now.
Good night. Byeeeee!

I miss You so much :(

swollen leg

2008-09-27T02:34:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 24 September 2008; Singgah Selalu at JB

ibu ku dan tangan ayah -.-"plain water and tahu goreng

3/4 was eaten

table 65

makcik ku; rocker!

dady tengah makan

sis take 2
sis take 1

I swear I'm tired; just came back from Hwa Chong. Update tomorrow.

Good night. Byeeeeeeeee

draggy morning

2008-09-24T13:45:00.000+08:00

Blogskin change, at last.

Woke up for breakfast at 5am. My eyes can barely open; slept late that night. Swallow 2 pills of panadol. Went back to sleep at 5.15am. Woke up again at 6.15am; go to school for the sake of getting clues for the upcoming EOY examinations that is starting on Thursday.

Nothing much happen in school in the morning; cool day. Someone text me; happy sey da top up! First period, social studies. Mom kept comparing us with the next door friends about the questions that was answered. Idc. Morning was quite draggy.

A maths; I did my chemistry homework. Decide to drop a maths; never will I concentrate in Mr Koh lesson; idk why. Like Hafiz said; his voice is kinda irritating to be heard. Haha. Next period was biology. Ms Lim go through about photosynthesis. At last, I could understand what she was talking about. She gets irritated when she shout when using the microphone -.-“

Chemisty test yesterday; Periodic Table I get 20/35 [highest in class]. Groofball get half mark lesser than me. Haha. Malay lesson is still the best. Went on to play games about bahasa. As time passes by, we went on talking about Hari Raya. One day of holiday only; because of examinations.

Cikgu mas: nama PM kita bukan Muhammad Lee Hsien Long.
President kita bukan Abdul S.R. Nathan.
Me: abeh Mr Abdul Harris ader…
Cikgu Mas: Mr Harris tak duduk atas kerusi president tao tak?

Worst week ever

2008-09-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

19 September 2008 Something just pissed me off! Today’s lessons were just enough in school. Giant was absent form school; no fun no joke. I was just lying on my table being lazy thinking of the problems in mind that still have to be solved.

18.09.08; Happy 15^th Birthday Shiykin! Though, as a classmate, it doesn’t look good when it’s a friend birthday and you just let her be sad from morning till noon just because of a stupid quarrel. With the presence of powder, we just got Shiykin to be an old woman in comp lab. She doesn’t look like a 15yearold teenage, instead a 50yearold grandmother. When she gave a smile; people around her seemed to be happy :D

Mass P.E.; captains ball again. It has been three weeks before that we’ve been playing the same game throughout just wanted to get the champs. In this week was the worst Thursday I ever had; I swear. People just wants to win a match; UNFAIRLY. I just hate to talk much. Rematch is all that can solve this problem; but it wasn’t taken into account. Their rematch for the past three weeks should not been taken into account either.

“iri tanda tak mampu”

Went back home with a moody face. Took a bath, iron clothes and off to Bugis with someone. Problems are up within a week; squishing my brain; I just had enough will all this!
byeeeeeee.

survey

2008-09-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

tagged by ShaSha.

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket ?
- Australia; Perth. Been wishing to go there with my parents.

2. What's your favourite thing to do ?
- Eat, sleep, dance, listening to songs, sing and texting people.

3. Do you think money can buy happiness ?
- It all depends on how you use it.
It can be really good if you use it for shopping. Haha xD

4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be ?
- Anything will do. Appreciate what is given; never ask more.

5. Things you can't live without :
- Family, friends, hand phone, money.

6. What are you afraid to lose ?
- Those which can’t be replace; esp Family.
Anyway, I don’t wish to lose anything, though.

7. If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do ?
- Big money; big shopping. Haha.
Save some; donate some chey! Nevertheless, family is a must to give.

8. What do you dream of doing in the future ?
- entah la ehk, belum pikirkan lagi

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey:
- Natasha peanut; caring, friendly, madness in her that can make people mad.

10. What makes you happy ?
- Being with friends and family; happy together.

11. What type of person do you hate the most ?
- Irritating people, lelaki yang kuat jealous, betina yang ngengada depan jantan.
(If you know me, you’ll know the answer)

12. If you have a super power what would it be ?
- Have the super power to kill people without going in jail;
if Singapore doesn’t have law, I’ve killed my ‘friends’.

13. Would you go for happiness or money ?
- happiness, duh.

14. Who do you think is the most important people in your life ?
- Mum and dad and my siblings.

15. If you have a boyfriend, would you die for him ?
- Only mad girls will do that; why be an idiot?

16. Who's the last person who hugged you ?
- Can’t remember; my dad I think.

17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now ?
- staying in 4E1 next year; doing good in this year examinations.
Fat hope -.-“

18. Who are you close to ?
- Peanut, Monkey, Giant, Groofball, Father, Kim, Kid and someone :D

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him ?
- Never will i. secrets is much more preferred.

20. If you could do one thing all over again what would it be ?
- start studying earlier and being with ____ .
Everything actually.

21. 7 things that scare you:
- God, hari kiamat, mum, dad, small insects, some ghost stories, crazy people.

22. 7 things that you like/love the most:
- God, family, friends, myself, green, honey milk tea, 09

23. 7 important things in my room:
- fan, bed, laptop, mirror, toiletries, light, hp charger, all my things.

24. 7 people to do this questionnaire:
- whoever wants to do; feel free to do.

No specification people :D

meet the baby

2008-08-25T10:31:00.000+08:00

23^rd August 2008 HAPPY 15^thBDAE MUHD ISA. Whole day out. It was tiring though. Never thought that Saturday was like that. Woke up at 11am; took a bath and prepare clothes to go out. I couldn’t figure out what to wear at the first place. Calling people and asking for the opinion was what I did; was difficult though. Decided to wear skirt and boyfriend tee. Went out and took MRT to Lavender. Meet Suzi and Dayah infront of Mr Bean shop and then proceed to Isa’s house. There’s this baby boy by the name of Acap; hes damn cute! He’s so called a ‘betrayer’. He will change partners when there’s someone new and is attracted to him.

At first, I really have no idea who he is until Suzi told me. She’s his first partner before I came but after that Acap stick to me all the way till it was time to go home. So I have to entertain him with his PSP -.-“ lenguh sak kaki aku. Plan with R, S and L that day was cancelled because of some important stuffs; disappointed but have to be understanding. Since it was cancelled I meet darling Reen at J.P. before meeting the rest at central to watch the Malay Dance Performance. Really I need time to be with her all alone to talk things out; we have many to talk about.

Meet Spade, Huda, Din, Ayim, Skyle, Radin and Shukor opposite central; was lucky that I did not miss the performance :D Camwhore; normal thing and went for dinner.

Baby acap ; sweet thang!new friends are love!
zul;suzi;me;dayah
birthday cake; Happy 15th Birthday!

birthday boy; muhd isa :D

24^th August 2008/today Teachers’ Day celebration at religious class. Went to bugis with Reen an Shortique; study. Tak der maknernyer sak gi blaja jauh jauh -.-“ Okay I'm tired. Update more tomorrow.

byebye

Achieve of victory :)

2008-08-22T12:36:00.000+08:00

21^th August 2008 V-I-C-T-O-R-Y is ours today. Happiest day; mass PE; on touch with captains ball. We won; we trashed 3A1 by the score of 10-1. Teachers have been always comparing us with the class next door; guess what? We are a good opponent indeed. Like what Giant had always pointed out; though we are not that good as an express class academically, we will turn out to be the best when its physically and mentally thinking. The ball never when to another court till Aqilah came in and help 3A1 in the last minute. At least they scored one rather than zero :DDDD

Physics; pop quiz. I score fifteen out of twenty; it was good though rather than failing the whole term. The forth period was the time when we played baseball for the girls; the boys had played their part last week; we take turns. They played their game interest this week. It was fun though we had some quarreling take place.

Unfairness taken place both first and second round; still the best emerge as the winner. First round was a failure for my team; since it was our first try, its okay for us but we still want a second round battling since people are not happy with each other. We will want to lose right? So each team consist of 10 members; what I can say about my team was we are not good still; we fight and give in the best. No one gave up. The score achieve for the first round is 3 : 4 – my group lose.

The second round start; my group was becoming more alert now and started to focus on the ball; everyone was serious. The game started and it started bad. The first person was Amalina; she did not make the run for her group; she almost cried when she was ordered OUT by teacher. After that; Shiykin was next. She was pushed by BFBMK and down with the cone. Though; BFBMK was still save; I’ve got no idea why but teacher told us that Shiykin blocked her; it doesn’t happen – people intends to be blind sometimes; can’t be blame. After our opponent group completed the run; it was then our turn. Everything turns out to be perfect and the scored achieve by us was 5 : 4 – coolio! We trashed as we take revenge back towards our opponent.

After the reveal of the winners; my group members shouted like mad people that at last we achieve some VICTORY of ours for the day. Congrats to my group mates; we make a perfect group S.A.N.S. – (without Marzie).

*Nurul Natasha fell again when she slide to touch the cone - 3rd time straight -.-"*

The fun never ends; Khadri became a teacher in Malay class since Mdm Mas wasn’t feeling well. What he will ask is:

“…. aper maknenyer?”
(we replied)
“Ah yer. Betol”
(he repeates for the rest for the paper)

He will always be the best out of the best within the class; hes the one who makes me laugh when I’m down; make me cry because of sadness; hes our favorite joker and singer in class.

bestfriend for 6yrs and still counting....

Pictures

2008-08-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

feeeeeeeee lah :DShiykin; muker maintain lah :DD candid

darling romi in lift

it was maths lesson; bored though

baby huda :DDD

rock on sweetheart!

meet ms weet; she's a good listener

fee;atifah;huda

HND :D

2008-08-12T10:50:00.000+08:00

candid shot. Firdaus vs Alif

the love for singapore

9^th August 2008 Happy 43^rd Birthday Singapore & Happy 15^th Birthday Radin Nur Izzati. This day wasn’t the day that I thought it will be; thus it’s a disaster of life. Firdaus and Alif just asked me out to NDP at Padang; ibu get 4 tickets. I when and felt kinda awkward afterall I’m the only girl.

Meet them at cityhall and they started to puff till one saw police; “Ehk! Police, Police! Dorang dating sini ah.” Guess whose phrase; Firdaus. Till then, we kept saying that phrase when we saw police walking around. Okay, should stop that, though it’s fun teasing him. Walk and walk and walk to Esplanade for the NDP show. Since it was early; decided to sit in Esp for some air-conditioning; everyone face was moody. Hot weather. Since from then onwards; I felt left out by them. Maybe it was for a little while since everyone was not hipper yet; it was just to settle me down.

Soon when we found our places; Firdaus, Alif and ‘Punat’ enjoyed the time. I was just left alone trying to cheer myself up till ‘Punat’ talked to me. It began to drizzle in the afternoon. After the whole NDP show thingy, probably when home with a moody face. Lain kali kalau nak ajak tu, layan. Aku nie bukan anak patong okay.

10^th August 2008 Whole day rotting at home like nobody business. Mommy was not in the mood to go out unless making my way to Taman Jurong; gandma’s house; sent some dish there. Back home late at night all alone.

11^th August 2008/today Public Holiday and it was the time when students revise for the common test the next day. Feeling bored at home alone; thought of studying at the library with company. People were busy with family and friends so instead of staying at home mugging; being alone I step out of the house and went to Frontier Library to mug. About half an hour past, Shaliz and friends came and approached me. We talked abit; stupid chat. After an hour mug without concentrating, I left. That was kinda boring.

the week :D

2008-08-08T15:39:00.000+08:00

Memories love ;)

A whole week of August(4^th – 8^th) Apologize for the ‘dead’ blog; I’m being lazy to blog a whole week. Friends are poking me asking to blog; okay here it is. This week; tiring week.

Monday – Sleepy the whole day; didn’t had enough sleep last night; 20mins. Netball training; 2.4km again, sprinting like mad girls, passes and all normal stuffs. I hurt my ankle for the how many times idk. Damn!

Tuesday – Supposing to be back home early; instead stay in school till 6pm. Edited video it is my job on that pathetic day; SHE instantly have this award thingy rehearsal and I have to do it alone. Bahhh -.-“ After logged in, the file was not there. Hack care; and proceed to the field to watch the soccer boys. It’s a tie with Hua Yi Secondary School.

Wednesday – Netball training again. Its for school team. It’s a repetition of drills that was done on Monday.

Thursday – MassPE was running again; games were cancelled of certain reason. Though the tired; we stayed on. Physics was cool I can say; people squeezing in to the front of the lab just to fight for aircon; its like plants fighting for sunlight. Lol. P.E. Mr M was absent again; we stayed in class; fun though. Hakim just being shameless and copy every of our subject teacher’s move; thanks to him it wasn’t a boring day afterall. Afternoon there’s meeting about teachers’ day wih Mr S. Then we had maths class. When half a class was supposed to attend and only 2 turn up -.-“ I know; pathetic.

Friday/today – nice date; nice number. 08.08.08 heh. K rubbish Syafiqah. Whole school celebrated National Day at Singapore Discovery Centre. There was a whole lot of students wearing red and white. First; we had performances and distributing of foods and drinks then we procceed on with the activities that was arranged for us. We had lunch at banquet with normal peeps. Headed home with Kam and Kim.

Daddy just treat me and mummy dinner; thank you very much :DDDD andand Tomorrow going NDP with ex-boyfriends and boyfriends. Better get going now; I'm getting lazier Byyyyeeeeeeeeeeeee:D

restless girl

2008-07-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

28^th July 2008 First day if school for the week. It start great; just that friends are not attending school; bestfriends. Everything was the same ‘cause school is as per normal. Today; netball training was fun ever; first time I intend to go netball. 24km run; timing 15.32 mins bahhh -.-“ at least I improve :DDD Nose was frustrating hot; bleeding inside. Damn! Was restless after that; sick again ni lah jangkit along and ayah! Bahhh -.-“ After the run, went to do some stretching and ball handling. Done; join the rest with the new drills. Every training there will surely be new drills. Lucky enough there was no suicide ;)

Decided to go to aunty’s house near stadium; fetching my dearest PSP home. Along bring along to idk where; stuuupiddddd -.-“ I walk all the way from school and it was not even there. Waited there with Umi, damn irritating kid. Message ex-boyfriend; talking about mommy. Oh gosh! Mommy did hide something from me now; she’s being secretive now adays! Can’t imagine ex-boyfriend messaging me like that; touched.

Muhammad Khadri Bin Joffery: Syafiqah! Aku buat lagu baru tao!
Me: ehk? Beh? Tk tau nyanyikan ah? Lagu lame pun belum nyanyikan…
Muhammad Khadri Bin Joffery: tk, lagu lama aku belm abis buat. Lagu bari ni dh abes.
Me: nyanyi skit aku nk dengar.
*sing = melttttsss*
Muhammad Khadri Bin Joffery: amacm? Sedap kan??? Aku tau!! Hahaha.
Me: heh! Suker ehk kau.
Muhammad Khadri Bin Joffery: suker lah! Beh? Lagu baru siols.
Me: kenapa kau tk nk buat lagu sendiri den nyanyi for gathering Hari Raya nanti?
Muhammad Khadri Bin Joffery: aku pikir nak bawak lagu nie, tapi cord aku baru dapat pembukaan jer..
Me: slowly.

A convo between bestfriends on the phone and he ask me to write inside my blog since im blogging. Lol. Anyway, get well soon dearest Idol. Miss you jokes in class dude! I’m getting restless and my backbone aching; netball ball hit my backbone while C div doing their passes. -.-“ thanks ehk girls! Update more soon!

Jasmine; thanks for the TOBLERONE w your signature on it! Haha ; Influence :DDD

Great Week :)

2008-07-28T03:43:00.000+08:00

25^th July 2008 So what exactly happen? Erm. Guess nothing much going on in school; as per normal; study study study being a bookworm soon :DD Had my netball training in the afternoon; was a bad one. Coach keep shouting my name “Syafiqah! Syafiqah! Syafiqah! What type of passes is that?!” Training was tough though; I came late cause of prefect meeting. She held me up after training; asking what' s up with me. I just recover from my sickness. Bahhh -.-“Prefect meeting was like people shooting bullet at each other; we are aiming at a person only btw. Won’t make it long; you know I know Excos :DDD Just hope she’ll know that we are talking about her all this while; she’s a slumber person!

- Clever people intend to be stupid at times

26^th July 2008 Was away to library early noon with Rully. Waking me up with Chemistry chapters. Still; I need to memorise Simple Distillation and another one; see, I forget again. Rully gonna kill me hah :P Get moving at 1500hrs; he’s going Geylang. Lol. Anyway, he reached home late; accompany me to buy food; mommy not at home. Went online after that; bored get to know someone; hah funny! :DDD He’s good; caring; SLUMER; cute! Hah. Okay stop being crappy. Reena say; he’s name like bangla! haha Night time; went out with mommy, daddy, along to Bedok Corner. Eat pasta; message Rully asking if he’s coming, No. Jealousy takes place when I talked about the pasta. Hah. There goes a mini fight; being a servant and so on.. lol.

- Thanks for the treat daddy!

27^th July 2008 Religious class in the morning; along was sick. Pity her; voice like sea lion. Haha Mommy called her that; no offence darl! Went to library again; w Reena and Marissa. Slacking there; normal routine in library; still not yet done my maths homework -.-“ lazzzzzyyyyyyy – talk talk talk about him; forget the past pls! Try my best but I failed. Forget it lah. Been receiving number pelik-pelik from aliens planet Pluto.

- Someone could just inter fear into your life; although you don’t know that person; you might me someone to him. When can that be?

Slacker’s out; byeeeeeeeee. Nights!

snapshots RHD'08

2008-07-28T03:39:00.000+08:00

Nah; amik gambar RHD'08. No more owe-ing you people pictures :D
Memories with you guys; I kept :DDD

eraser pls?

2008-07-25T03:39:00.000+08:00

24^th July 2008 Check tagboard; Natasha replied. View her blog; and okay she reminds me of the past when HBS babes&dudes spent times together. What ever it is; Chicken; Ayam; Duck and Itik had died long long ago. I swear I can’t forget those days. Ohhh pls someone tell me how do I erase those memories off my mind. I promise him once that I won’t forget the memories we had; sorry. It’s too much pain and burden for me to keep those in mind. I have to let it go. Seriously; how?

I’ve talked to A about how has he changed after a while yesterday. I only know him as a different guy now. People tend to change; yeap I know; I did too.

Me: Ayim, you’ve change a lot. You’re not the Ayim I know in the past.
Ayim:*sad face*
Me: Yelah sekarang pun kau dah sombong per. Dulu jumpe jer salam; sekarang? Peace! Paper lah okay. People changed.
Ayim: Kaykay; besok kau tengok aku salam kau. *smile*
Me: But, I don’t like people not being him/herself. But all is up you. What I know is you’re not being yourself.

(continue…)

This morning A really shaked my hand; true or not he’s being himself; all is his choice. Khadri’s presence in school really change my day a lot; yesterday was mundane and today was a totally different thing. We had our morning run; ran alone. Came back and saw Natasha’s leg bleeding like ____. She fell down again; bet she laugh before she could get up. Haha. We had our 2testes today; Physics and Biology. I never finish my Physics test but I did for Biology; it was way much harder than I thought. Malay supp ws super when Mdm M scolded sec4Es; behaviour; attitude problem.

Went home and have enough rest. 2200hrs I woke up. Msges and miss calls; held up my phone. Shit! Stupid people just love to pass numbers all around the world; stuuupiddddd! Watch Contender Asia with Khadri; choosing the loser to be him -.-“ Forget it; I’m talking crap now.

What now? Nvm. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :DDD

sicccccccccccckk -

2008-07-24T14:46:00.000+08:00

23^rd July 2008 A pathetic day when almost all the malay boys were absent; that makes malay class very boring. Instead of having a class, we had our own time ‘cause some of us did what we are supposed to do in class as a homework :D So, Mdm M showed us this video that made me feel so pitiful to the little boy.

Imagine that you have a baby boy; 2yrs at the age. Lost in a city; report to the police. Police was searching all over the city; they knew something wasn’t right. 45mins later; a man came with a baby in his arm; acting he was a asleep. The man saw you and the police; leaving the boy hitting on the ground; lepaskan budak tu biar jatuh ke lantai, bodoh pe sak? Tak der belas kasihan ker tak der perasaan? You cried I pain seeing you child hitting on the ground with a great impact; rush to the hospital. Doctor found out that the baby had already died. He was dead 45mins before when his body was cut open; keeping all the drugs inside his body with a heart of his.

What a human being?! They don’t even have a heart to hurt others. A 2yrs old boy that have not see the world enough; was killed. This is a kind of ‘animal + human being’. I can jolly well say that an animal also have a heart; they only kill their prayers because of food and for protecting themselves. Pity, pity. I don’t wish to have that kind of animal + human being in Sinapore.

Enough of that. Today; weather was damn cold. I’m sick; that, thanks to Marzie. She was sick yesterday and now the disease has transferred to me. Like I said to her “ 3E1 has this kind of gene that can transferred bacteria easily. This was experimented by Syafiqah and Marzie; she was sick yesterday and I’m sick today. What a strong gene. “ This is so pathetic right. I just hate having bad flu.

Physics was usually very boring; in humanities room. This time round, Mr Lee called the other half of the class up for an urgent briefing. The briefing was about a trip in November this year. China is the destination. It cost about $1400 per student; but was subsidies 80% for Singaporeans and we end up only need to pay an amount of $300 per student. That’s cheap! Students who want to go have to give their names to Mr Lee by Monday; first come first serve basis. Students who have gone to Thailand, high chances not able to apply for China trip. I want to go! A 1week trip :DDD

Tomorrow there are 2 class test; physics and biology. Concept map still need time to be done. Bahhhh -.-“ Have to start working on it now.

Byeeeeeeeeeeee people ;DDD